deeb's journal

a bad week and will be off for weeks...

2009-02-13T23:29:00.000-08:00

internet is back being okay but sadly i won't be on the net as i'm taking a break. that is if you consider a week or two as a short term break~ i might be on MSN occasionally and don't expect too much on it as it's not a promise that i'll do so. been having a few days of straight disappointment and the rain in my days haven't stop either so there's no happy mood or emotion as such for now. i'm still worried about 3 people that i know they won't take what i did to heart but still worry if they're mad at me. it wasn't done intentionally and i, myself wouldn't have done that even if i have a purpose of doing so. i'm so sorry... i miss these 3 people badly. that's one thing and the other is that i'm hurt by the fact that my trust is again misused but in a way one think it's okay by me when it's not, at all. i know it's a little thing but i got my trust misused a month ago and i still haven't recover from it. the truth still stings me more than how the lie tortured me for months.

i have everything at its worst at the moment that i'm actually being hateful towards everything and i'm emotionally stressed. i'm not an emo or trying to be one, so don't think of me in such way or not you're an idiot for those thoughts. i mean it. i'm someone who care less what the world have that i don't and as well less concerned that i lack the feelings that my friends emit to and receive from their signifcant others. but somehow, jealousy crept into me and filling in thoughts of how life would have been happier, serendipity even, if i have someone for my own to spend with this year. but jealously alone isn't enough to get me agreeing on the idea to put myself back on to the dating market but it itself is enough to make me depressed. and grimly, the depression grows worst as i realize that i'm alone for far too long. i don't want anyone advicing me to get myself a guy just to end my misery and stop being dramatic because you people don't get it. i'm a complicated person and to elaborate my thoughts on getting myself hooked is more of a complex that just saying how complicated i am. i don't want to be in a relationship because i tend to hurt the other person and leave them under a month. nothing of my wanting but it just works that way with me. the down low is that i'm here just to express myself, somewhere to pour my heart out without anyone saying anything about it.

6 Os & my piece: mannequin

2009-02-02T10:32:00.000-08:00

well i'm a tad late by a few days with this but... I GOT 6 Os :D finally the long wait has ended! well i'm kinda frustrated with my chemistry cause i only got a D on it or not i'll have 7 Os :] anyway, my dream of going to SMSA has come true and that's the second dream i've achieved so far~ i have many more dreams that need to be real and made. for the early weeks of february, i'm guessing i'll be quite busy~~ so that means i won't be on the net 24-7 like how i've been in the past 3 months :] oh yeah here's something random:

"Mannequin"

Like a mannequin, movements diasbled,
Glass eyes just watch the world revolves,
Wish this heart isn't sadly dismantled,
So it wouldn't this much hurt just to see him go,
Butterflies netted then pinned to the wall,
Just to satisfy one's hobby of collecting them,
Wish I could have everything and him in my hall,
So I wouldn't have to miss anything,
Lips biten, the sourness had to be swallowed,
Regardless how much I refuse to take it in,
If only he left trails that I could have followed,
Then I wouldn't dream just to see him anymore,
Like a favorite blanket, it's special,
He's the same way but nothing I could hold onto,
I could say he's the oxygen I breathe and all,
But that just wouldn't get me him back would it?
Like a mannequin, movements diasbled,
Glass eyes just watch the world revolves,
Wish this heart isn't sadly dismantled,
So it wouldn't hurt this much just to let him go.

Spurs vs Pompey: 1-1 (Defoe's an idiot)

2009-01-18T10:18:00.000-08:00

Tottenham Hotspur VS Portsmouth: 1-1
White hart Lane

it was a game worth 2 hours used upon :) both teams were playing their hearts out and it's good to see Pompey played greatly in term of strategy. it was cool to see they have most of their passes accurate and that Belhadj was able to do a 360 even for a short moment ^^ what amazes me is that they can pull off their play just now when half of the team weren't in a really good mood. it was clearly seen that Kranjcar, Belhadj, Kaboul, Distin and Johnson were a bit low today. it was sad to see Pompey playing without Kanu & Hughes on the field as they're great players and can be quite useful on field. it was also unfortunate to have Wilson substituting Kaboul at the 88th minute when that change should have been done earlier. Kaboul wasn't in a great shape and had been creating mistakes quite often as Utaka. Wilson is more dependable and better with techniques in my view. Also sad to know that Kranjcar got injured in the game later on and that had Hreidarsson came on to field. but overall i'm happy that it was them who scored first with Nugent's goal and how they performed well despite the state they were in. there was a player who was an ex-Pompey that boiled my blood and that is...

Traore defending the ball from Woodgate

Jermain Defoe. god i freaking HATE this player! he played for Tottenham before then bought by Pompey and now he has left Pompey for a chance to play in Tottenham again. damn he was playing either so-so or terribly in Pompey like he has no will to play for them but for Spurs, damn only god knows how excited he was in scoring for the team. first thing crossed my mind, "why transferred to Pompey if you aren't gonna play whole-heartedly for them?" and i hate how he celebrated his goal against his old team just now. when at Pompey, he did put efforts in playing alright but he always miss the chance in goaling! but in Spurs, he grabs any chances there is to score for the team!! the hell man, what kinda attitude is that? i know it's natural for any player to celebrate and be happy with their first goal for their new team but seriously, when it's against your old team, that pisses the fans off and just simply WRONG. i can't believe how quick he forgot Pompey even if it's only been a year for him there but still. once a spurs always a spurs :/ now i just disrespect him as a great player...

Jermain Defoe: the one who forgot Portsmouth easily

Usu & Uncle Hadi's departure :D

2009-01-17T23:26:00.000-08:00

yesterday my Usu and Uncle Hadi went on a flight respectively back to Scotland and Jordan. my sister as always reminds Usu Mirul to buy her a Pompey jersey and unexpectedly, she asked for a Pompey bag as well x) not sure if he's gonna buy the bag but the jersey is a certain.
everyone was there at the airport even Amit Nuar O.O he's a rarity when it comes to appearing at occasions xD there were a lot of crowd at the airport and most of them seemed like they were OMO-ing (orang meliat orang) and thank god with Ryyan around to play with, my agoraphobia didn't turn up :) oh yeah, my cousin Qibah had her 17th birthday yesterday :D she had an amazing day she said which is good enough for me to know ^^ i always love it when people say they have a great day on their special day, dunno why but i just like it (: it's kinda nice to see that she turned 17 on the 17th January, the age and the day matches xD i love conspiracy at times~~ oh yeah, Iman went emotional when he saw his dad and Usu went leaving him as the passengers of their plane was called upon. i actually cried along with Iman, i mean the sadness was intense! hey it beats any drama and it's easy to cry along with him since he's only 3 years old :P i'm gonna miss my Usu a lot since he's fun to have around with :) anyway i'll be posting pictures regarding that day later on as i haven't transfer it to my laptop :D

Fun to do :)

2009-01-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

Rules:
Go to [link] and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

1.) Your name: Diba (Dibah hasn't been defined yet :P)

a tall, skinny and seductive woman with a vivacious prowl. any man would want to be in her pantalones; SHES SO BANGABLE! i mean, DAYMM GURL YOU SO FIINE! but boys, dont mess with her, cause that diba's ninja-speed bitching reflexes might get to youu. YA HEARR?!! so in short, all diba's are sexy, and be careful what you wish for cause you just might get itttt ;)

ROFLMAO!!! am i suppose to be happy? xD

2.) Your age: 17

The right age to start having sex, according to Chef on South Park

3.) What should you be doing: sleeping

To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in.

WTF?? that's insane D:

4.) Favorite color: Blue

The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between green and indigo, evoked in a human observer by radiant energy with wavelengths of approximately 420 to 490 nanometers.

haha so scientific xD

5.) Birthplace: Brunei

An extremely rich country that has very poor neighbors such as Malaysia and other south pacific nations.
Capital: Bandar Seri Begawan (Brunei City)

lol i'm proud of my country because of its richness ;D

6.) Month of your birth: October

NUDY MAGAZINE DAY!

O_O (completely speechless)

7.) Last person you talked to: Mom

The woman who loves you unconditionally from birth, the one who puts her kids before herself and the one who you can always count on above everyone else.

Just telling her your problems makes you feel better because mom's always know how to make it all go away.

Even if you fight, know that she's just looking out for your best interests.

Where would you be without your mom?

oh that explains everything :) My mom is totally like this, i love you mama :D

8.) One of your nicknames: Dib

One of the main characters from the cartoon Invader Zim. Dib is a young boy who dreams of being a paranormal investigator when he grows up, even though his father, a world-famous scientist, wants him to study 'real science'. When the alien Zim appears at his school with plans for world domination, Dib is often the only one who can stop him. Unfortunately, no one else realizes that Zim is an alien, so they all think that Dib is insane.

LOL i do talk about paranormal stuff but i'm a GIRL :) and my nickname is either spelled Dib or Deeb. (the reason why i made it into double E's is because someone pronounced Dib as Daib/Dyb D:)

Tagged:
Fatin
Darina
Nurun

Embracing 2009 :)

2009-01-04T16:42:00.000-08:00

it's January already meaning it's a new year :D and new year concludes to resolutions!!!! so mine for 2009 would be:

Get into SMSA (i do hope so, AMIN!!!)
Meet new people and to be friends with them
Be a bit more socialize
Try to not fall in love
Learn new 5 languages (hope i actually master one :D)
Add more clothes to my wardrobe xD (colorful ones please)
Read and perfect my Al-Quran reading
Memorize down some Surahs
Try to have more pets than now
Travel more
More into keeping money than spending it :P
Study hard as I'm determined in becoming a lawyer
Lessen my daily usage of the net
Maintain the friendly, bubbly and optimistic me
Maintain my good health (that is NEEDED)

that's so far what i could list for my 2009's resolutions ^^ oh yeah, about my new year night. it was radical and totally fun :D i enjoyed the whole night completely with my cousins and got to see a lot of firework displays (regardless the ones my uncle bought which didn't last long and the neighbor's covered up for the disappointment). also we weren't just celebrating new year, it was our lil cousin, Efa's birthday as well :D she turned 4 that night! and guess what? on 1st January 2009, there's a new addition to the family. Efa's mum (my Usu) gave birth to her second child which is a baby boy! he was all red but cute really ^^ oh yeah here's some pictures taken during the new year night :)

from left to right: Qilah (my cousin), me & Fatin (my sister)

Efa, excited to blow out her candles ^^

Make a wish little cousin~

I understand that he's happily kicking a ball...

...But what is up with him kicking a coconut O.o

Abg Adi (my brother), Fatin, Me, Liyana (in white), Qilah (next to me) & Tikah (my sister in turqoise)

from left to right: Abg Pol (crazy look), Udin, Abg Malek, Daniel & Aiman

One of the firework display (sadly it didn't last long but it's quite big actually)

lol i can't believe i'm doing this post on the first day of school as it reopens today xD and yes, i'm a few days late with the title there :P also with this: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HOPE 2009 BE A GREAT YEAR TO YOU GUYS!!!!

Great Funny Youtubers (part 2)

2008-12-29T16:10:00.000-08:00

Okay there are 3 more youtubers that i'm gonna mention so first... or third, is Jon Lajoie. a total comedian and very talented xD anyone can relate to his comedy... well except for some serious women regarding to his videos about the female genitalia which i found funny x) it's amazing how he can write and rap so well for a whitie (lol i sound a bit racist there xD) so here's some of his videos that I favorite~

Jon Lajoie

Not Giving a F***

Everyday Normal Guy 2

Rapist Glasses

Being Gay Commercial

that's enough about Jon there ^^ up next is nonetheless but Nigahiga! consist of two asian dudes Ryan & Sean (but i suppose Ryan runs it most) who has awesome videos especially their video, 'How to be Gangsta' but sadly got banned by Youtube for some particular reason. can't really think of what that reason is... anyway, they're radical and totally random. they could be the asian version of smosh but whatever, i still love em ^^

Ryan Higa & Sean Fujioshi

Movie in Minutes

How To Be Ninja

Asian Boy- Yank Dat Cameltoe

Sean Returns!

Alright now last but not least, David Spates :D he is amazing! his videos mostly crack me up that i literally fall on the floor, laughing with tears xD some of his videos include his best friend and fellow youtuber, John Ollie :) he's pretty awesome too so i recommend you people to check him out as well~~ so yeah here's my favorite videos by David Spates ^^

David Spates as Chris the Crackhead

Halloween- Interview With A Gay Vampire

Chris The Crackhead Thief #2

C*ckblocking 2 "John's revenge"

What Would You Do If -Elevator-

10 Things You Should Never Say To Another Guy Friend

Chris the Crackhead and C*ckblocking is a series and i love all the episodes of it :D i love many of Spates work :) well that's so far for the comedians or youtubers that i love so much~~

Great Funny Youtubers (part 1)

2008-12-28T22:11:00.000-08:00

I promised you guys that i'd share some of the youtubers that never fails to make me laugh :) well first of all, i present you DCLugi~ Hilarious and born genius, he should have his own show and be famous by now! Youtube is simply not a place for a talent like his, the world should know about the guy and be prepared for their face to be hurt from laughing too hard xD he's extremely good in impersonation and he usually nails the characters he tries to mimic :D here's some of the videos I simply love from him:

Help Wanted

I'm Not Cool With That

The Language Barrier

there's suppose to be another video titled ''Harry Potter and The Unnecessary Knob" but i can't never watch the video again as someone must have flagged it D: but totally hilarious x) his impression of Snape & Ron was bloody perfect :D alright, let's move to the second Youtuber, Smosh~

Smosh Snatchers

Anthony Gets A Haircut

Male Model

these duo are awesome! these guys are hilarious as well~~ they did almost lost their spark when they posted a few videos regarding the president or anything related to that but they won the hearts of their fans back with their crazy videos starting from Smosh Snatchers :) well that's my view anyway xD it's kinda sad that they're number 3 on the most subscribed channel where fred took the first place. i like fred, don't get me wrong but he doesn't seem to be as funny as how he used to be ;____;

ups on Deeb :)

2008-12-28T21:34:00.000-08:00

Fears & Allergies

i thought i was a bit tweek in the phobia area as i have too many phobias (19 fears, how amusing...) i suffer most from mnemophobia, claustrophobia & agoraphobia D: but the term 'allergy', yeah that's a whole new level :/ since a kid, i know i 'm allergic to fur and dust (quite sensitive this one) but i care less knowing there's no serious side effect to it. but ever since six month ago, i kept on rubbing my eyes till it sores or waters and can't stop touching my nose ;___; it was dreadful really and a few days ago my dad took me to a clinic then the doctor said there's something wrong with my nose which is caused by my allergy (note: i run a zoo so i intend to play with my furry friends :D) so i was given 2 packets of allergy pills and a nasal spray D: the spray works great as it enables me to breathe normally and it has improved my eye sight as it now becomes clearer than before :D so to maintain my sight, i've tried refraining for the pc and might use it to just 3-4 times a week ^^ but overall i'm alright although i might have signs on picking up a fever D: hope that doesn't happen at all~~

Birthday & Result

it's the 29th December today and yesterday was a birthday of a well-known friend of mine Mona so yeah, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! i wish her all the best in life even though it's a late wish but that's far better than nothing right? alright, new topic. it's just a few days away till school reopens again and i know there'll be a lot of people complaining about their holidays bring not long or fun enough to fully satisfy them~ but not for me and the other form 5-ians as we still have about a month or more of holidays ahead of us while waiting for our O level results~~ i do hope we get 6 'O's above and will continue our studies in formth six :) i'm a mixed of both anticipation and fear while waiting for my result. to be frank, during weeks of going through my exam i wasn't in a good shape. i was really sick and i felt nausea every 10-15 minutes which really bothered me thus making me lose my concentration on answering the papers. it was a nightmare really, i kept on wishing for the exam to finish or for time to fasten up instead of hoping to answer the questions greatly :'( so that explains the fear i have on my results as my health DID affect my performance through out the exam D:

Boxing day (26.12.08)

2008-12-26T12:16:00.000-08:00

Boxing Day Football!!!

Note: All pictures used are from ESPNsoccernet (link)

Liverpool VS Bolton Wanderers: 3-0
Venue: Anfield Stadium
Watch Highlight

Stoke City VS Manchester United: 0-1
Venue: Britannia Stadium
Watch Highlight

Chelsea VS West Bromwich Albion: 2-0
Venue: Stamford Bridge Stadium
Watch Highlight

Aston Villa VS Arsenal: 2-2
Venue: Villa Park Stadium
Watch Highlight

Manchester City VS Hull City: 5-1
Venue: City of Manchester Stadium
Watch Highlight

Portsmouth VS West Ham United: 1-4
Venue: Fratton Park Stadium
Watch Highlight

Wigan Athletic VS Newcastle United: 2-1
Venue: JJB Stadium
Highlight: - (no availability of this highlight's link)

Middlesbrough VS Everton: 0-1
Venue: Riverside Stadium
Watch Highlight

Tottenham Hotspur VS Fulham: 0-0
Venue: White Hart Lane
Watch Highlight

Sunderland VS Blackburn Rovers: 0-0
Venue: Stadium of Light
Highlight: - (no availability of this highlight's link)

21.12.08 :D

2008-12-26T03:09:00.001-08:00

This should have been posted a few days ago but I wasn't up to it back then ^^ 21.12.08 was my auntie Memeng Damit's wedding :D i got to be one of the 'penyambut tetamu' (lol i don't know what's it called in english, doubt it's guest receiver) with my cousins and aunties~ since she's married to someone who has relation to the royalties, so there were some police officers near the gate just to control traffic really x) but uncle Hadi, he thought the police came because the wedding was causing a lot of noise and they were going to warn the bride's family about it xD quarter of the guests were Japanese 0.o

The bride and the groom with the Ambassador of Japan

Some of the penyambut holding gifts for the guests ^^

Iman looking at the gifts for the guests

Ryyan after waking up :D

Darwish and Sasha~ very adorable ^^

That was the afternoon and we came back here again at night ^^ the day was hot as hell but at night, it was raining like mad and there were thunders so loud that it caused many children to cry D: hey even the fish in the drains jumped out of the water xD but despite the bad weather, the whole ceremony went on smoothly ^^ here's are some pictures regarding that night~

Men side of the camp ^^

Uncle Shahruzz & Auntie Memeng Damit

The bride & groom with their parents

The bride & groom cutting their cake

happy birthday peeps! (December)

2008-12-13T00:45:00.000-08:00

Hey it's December!!! *tionk* lagging~~~ anyway, I'm wishing happy advance and belated birthdays to those who have theirs in this wonderful cold month ^^

1st- Abg Adi & Didi
3rd- Villa
1oth- Meg White
12th- Qawi
13th- Ezzati (good god I've been reminded or not... D:)
19th- Yasti, Babel & Ivo
22nd/23rd- Daniel (unsure... how disturbing)
26th- Ramsey

lol... nda banyak manusia wah yang ku to b'day nya in this month x) sorry, i got no presents for you people ;___; but if i can, i'll get you people one :DDDD oh yeah, whoever wants to catch me on MSN, i will appear online between 11pm till 2am or so ^^ i know, odd hours but that's when i'm available :D what can i say? the afternoons till evenings are used for sleep, jog, eat and such xP

what pissed me off

2008-12-07T10:39:00.000-08:00

a friend of mine send me a link regarding the life style and habits of typical Bruneians. it was funny all over but what pissed me off was the translation of Darussalam. surely they find it hilarious to change Abode of Peace into Abode of Piss. seriously, i find that NOT amusing at all. whoever write those facts might be some douche of an asshole who seriously has nothing better to do than to bitch around and making nasty comments about the people around them. either it's an effect from them being social outcasts or they seriously think their way cooler that anyone, had them wasting hours upon hours to think up all those 'typical' things on Bruneians. i have to admit 92.5% (yes i just come to that much) of the facts are agreeable but some of it are just exaggerating and obviously an attempt of trying to be funny (which failed). without them realizing what they have written, they have successfully show how most Bruneians operate:

1) having a work without doing much of it with big salary
2)when one just got promoted or got into a higher position, the others around them starts hating and try anything possible to crush them down just because the others find it 'unfair'.

call me narrow-minded if you want but i seriously find it offensive and it actually made me sympathize on how our country runs. i love my country whole-heartedly and i laugh at all the things others find stereotyped but to actually state them online and guiltlessly insulting the very land you're living in, that's disgusting. it's even surprising how you were given citizenship here regarding how you LOVE this country. (realize the sarcasm in the word 'love' to make sense) anyway, that's my view.

Been tagged again :D

2008-12-03T03:02:00.000-08:00

What's the relationship of you with him/her?
We're online friends but feels like macam real life saja xD

5 impression towards him/her?
Cool, Good-looking, Humorous, Fun & Dependable

The most memorable thing that she/he said to you?
What he said on my birthday :')

The most memorable thing that she/he have done to you?
By dedicating 7 of his goals to me xD

If she/he becomes your lover, you will...
WT-Fabgregas??! that is IMPOSSIBLE, i'll kill myself 0_o

If she/he becomes your enemy, you will...
no... NOOO!!!! please not that, he's that special for me not wanting that!

If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on....
hahaha no, he and i will never be together ;D i don't want that anyway~

If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is?
if he lies that he's still at the hospital when he's out already.

The most desirable things to do on him/her is?
Meet him and watch a live match at the stadium together :D

The overall impression on him/her is?
The one who's able to give me what no one can: freedom.

How do you think people around you feel about you?
Dull, somewhat fun to hang with, easily laughed and quiet

The character of you about yourself is?
The quiet observer. that's pretty much me, more analyzing in life (:

On contrary, the character of yourself you hate is?
Realize what's bad in me but hardly does anything to change it xP

The most ideal person you wanna be is?
My mum I suppose :D

For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
Thanks for the love, I love you guys as well! *hugs* If only I'm able to do something to make you guys feel special I would~~~ I really would~

10 people you tag

1. Vespera
2. Nika
3. Nurun
4. Ira
5. Yasti
6. someone
7. anyone
8. who's up for it
9. who's dying to do it out of boredom
10. no one :D

Who is No. 2 having relationship with?
Kranjcar, Schmeichel, Rakitic & Akinfeev. Too many? compare to me, that's peanut size many.

No. 3 is a female or male?
Female :D

If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
hahaha sorang2 tu eh no 7 atu xD

How about No. 5 and No. 8
ntah, bah Yas ko pilih spa ja yg ko mo~

What is No. 1 studying about?
uhhh... i'm not sure?

Is No. 4 single?
Yesh and happily I reckon :D

Say Something about No. 6
If you came by my blog because of brokencyde, tell me if you want their lyrics~ LOL

10 facts about moi~

2008-11-29T11:41:00.000-08:00

1. Each blogger must post this rules.
2. Each blogger must being with ten facts about them.
3. Other blogger who are also tagged must also state the rules and ten facts about themselves.
4. You must choose ten people to give this award to and list their names at the end.
5. It is essential that tag is left at their tagboards, letting them know about the award they've received.

TEN FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I'm close to my family and I prefer going out with them than to be out with my cousins (yes something you might pity me for but still, that's the truth :D)

2. I absolutely HATE being in a relationship! i prefer the single life, more freedom and happiness bebeh!!

3. I have 19 fears but the strongest one is mnemophobia. i've had it since i was 12 or so i suppose :)

4. I LOVE my friends to death and i care for them more than lovers really :D i cherish my friendships with those who are close to me~

5. I LOVE colors!!! i go crazy for anything colorful to be honest

6. I enjoy music. I jog, eat, read, sleep and blog with listening to music. ask my sisters, they KNOW.

7. I'm a clean freak. i HATE untidiness and any other dirty environment. it just shows that i'm health concerned xD

8. I BREATHE and I'm CRAZY for football :D if you start talking to me about it, i guarantee you i won't stop until you say stop xD football to me is like sweets, it's ADDICTIVE!!!

9. Writing is my passion. I create an alternative way of releasing my stress or pouring my heart out by writing poems. this is like a STATEMENT about me :D

10. i'm generally nice or kind to everyone really but without them knowing, I'm someone who.... CURSES ALOT!!!! yes i curse the worst amongst my friends but i don't do it in public often ^^ my smile can be a smirk that lets out curses you barely hear. LOL WT-Fabregas???

I tagged:
Nika
Vespera
Nurun
Kaka Wedah
and some more I'll think of later xD

The Most

2008-11-28T23:58:00.000-08:00

If I have the plane I would fly,
If I have the freedom I would go,
If I have the money I would buy,
All the things that could bring me to you,
Open your eyes and look at me,
I'm anxiously waiting for your answer,
So tell me exactly what you see,
Of me so I can be sure of my position,
You were the quilt that keeps me warm,
The one who made me smile,
I simply love your wit and charm,
But I love your companionship the most,
People chase for their another for love,
To make them feel secured and accepted,
But for me you alone is enough,
To give me that similar content feeling,
For once I'm sure that I was the best,
And you were the same for me,
But why did things become such a mess?
Tears and ignorance is all that's left of us,
I admit I miss you terribly,
And I want for our friendship to live again,
The thing between you and me,
No one could ever replace or recreate it,
If I have the plane I would fly,
If I have the freedom I would go,
If I have the money I would buy,
All the things that could bring me to you.

The managers and a pundit

2008-11-28T22:02:00.000-08:00

The managers and a pundit :)

i've gone through some pictures of football managers and i found few of them are hot or cute when they were younger :D and some just remains the same xD but still there are more managers yet to be found that are hot when they were younger (Bilic not included :P)

Jose Mourinho (there's a video of him in 1988, he's way hotter there xD)

Josep 'Pep' Guardiola (you have to agree he's kinda cute :D)

Jamie Redknapp (a pundit now. he was cute back then :D)

These are the guys who doesn't have much difference or look far scarier when younger than they are now :D

Arsene Wenger (he look FAR old in 96 then he was 2 years ago in 06)

Sir Alex Ferguson (for 20 years, the color of his hair was the only thing changing)

Jurgen Klinsmann (not much change from the Bayern coach :D)

Writing with your elbow xD

2008-11-25T20:45:00.000-08:00

1. Write (type) your full name with your elbow.
2. No backspacing.
3. Tag 10 people to do this.

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hyjuu wdeibash husniyah bte hjn nyqahahyaq

ROFLMFAO!!!! husniyah bte nya lurus p yg lain... subhanallah crack hantap xD haha deeb jdi wdeibash lerh~~

ani bru pkai elbow ni, nnti pakai hidung (baik tetakan keyboard atu??? if hidung nda mancung pyh tu eh) LOL apakn??? randomness~~

So I tag:
kaka wedah
tikah/ nika
ira
nurun
Ezzati

hahaha nda smpai 10 lah xD

I'm Sorry I Am- Brokencyde xD

2008-11-25T08:17:00.000-08:00

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player or etc on "Shuffle" mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag 6 people.

Are you male or female?
Dear Vienna- Owl City (lol i'm lifeless like?? that's what the song somewhat meant xD)

Describe yourself!
Addicted To You- Electric Valentine (haha addicted to footballers really :D)

What do people feel when they're around you?
True Love- Jun (haha that's the gayest & impossible feeling if that was true xD)

Describe your current relationship.
Dot com- Secret Secret Dino Club (internet love!!! lol so uncool~)

Where would you like to be now?
Crazy Loop (mm ma ma)- Dan Balan (fashion week~~ smooth dan ;D)

How do you feel about love?
Kylie- Akcent (if it's by one of my thirteen husbands or Adrian then alright :D)

What's your life like?
You're The One- Natalie (now that's a gay life... seriously not that way)

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
My Dick- Mickey Avalon (ROFL!!! i'm happy with my genital and being a girl thank you! i would love to learn more than 7 languages xD)

Say something wise.
A Shot In The Dark- Houston Calls (oh yeah something i'm quite attached to)

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
This Is Anfield- Liverpool FC (that's a random response i'd definitely say :D)

How would you describe yourself?
Love Games- Lady Gaga (oh yeah totally works for me completely)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Insatiable- Darren Hayes (LOL. not easily satisfied??? damn that's killing.)

How do you feel today?
Crank That- Soulja Boy (randomness yes but cranking like soulja boy, NOOOO (;)

What is your life's purpose?
That's What You Get- Paramore (to not follow my heart? well it's just to get a decent job that has a great salary that can get me traveling easily)

What is your motto?
Pop Goes My Heart- Pop!/Hugh Grant (so uncool. stay within your inner circle with your close ones and poke those outsiders if they come nearer is my motto xD)

What do your friends think of you?
Bigcitydreams- Nevershoutnever (they're simply the best to want me to be there for them ;D)

What do you think of your parents?
Rafa's The Special One- Liverpool fans (more like MY PARENTS are the special ones)

What do you think about very often?
You'll Never Walk Alone- Gerry & The Pacemakers (this shows how loyal and proud i am of Liverpool ;D)

What is 2 + 2?
Da Vinci Claude- Mc Solaar (somewhere in that french lyrics there might be the word four so that's the answer xP)

What do you think of your best friend?
Reverse This Curse- Escape The Fate (haha i think of them as skaters?? what? i played tony hawk's skating on Wii ;P)

What do you think of the person you like?
All Of Your Love- Hellogoodbye (yeah and this goes to my 13 husbands :D)

What is your life story?
Headlock- Imogen Heap (strange, complicated and hard to believe, yeah that's pretty much it~)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
After Hours- We Are Scientists (work after hours for more money and relaxed at the same time)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Misery Business- Paramore (lol love hantap tu eh xD)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
505- Arctic Monkeys (that's sad, i'm dancing with my husband and i remember my ex?? 0_o)

What will they play at your funeral?
Born For This- Paramore (LOL i was born to die xD that's pure coincidence~)

What is your hobby/interest?
Obsession Is Such An Ugly Word- Alesana (i'm not into obsession? cool~~ but honestly, football)

What is your biggest fear?
Freek-A-Leek- Petey Pablo (a black womanizer and sex addict? adding that to my rack of fears xD)

What is your biggest secret?
Push- Enrique Iglesias ft Lil Wayne (hahaha that's one hot secret~)

What do you think of your friends?
Show Me Your Genitals- Jon Lajoie (ROFLMFAO!!!! that is NOT what i feel for them 0_o that's lesbo act!)

What will you post this as?
I'm Sorry I Am- Brokencyde (lol this is so emo like~~ neeeded kah?)

Those Who I Tag:
Nika/ Tikah
Yasti
Ira
Tubie/ Banana man
Nurun
Wahidah

the many draws and little wins

2008-11-23T12:05:00.000-08:00

the four top teams of the Barclays Premier League had it badly this week. one lost and the other three had it draw. Liverpool had it draw while Arsenal unfortunately lost to one of the teams I support alongside these two which is Manchester City.

Chelsea vs Newcastle United: 0-0
Stamford Bridge, London

Liverpool vs Fulham: 0-0
Anfield, Liverpool

Manchester United vs Aston Villa: 0-0
Old Trafford, Trafford

Manchester City vs Arsenal: 3-0
City of Manchester Stadium, Manchester

here's the current BPL table (source: http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/match/season/tables/):

it was kinda surprising to find Chelsea goalless against Newcastle United considering many of their main or skilled players like Ballack, Deco and such are on field. quite great defending i assume from Newcastle United to have maintained Chelsea goalless full time. i find this quite great as Liverpool isn't far back left behind considering they have it draw also at Anfield. about Manchester United it's kinda expected for them to have no goals against Aston Villa as they are equally strong as them. Agbonlahor of Aston Villa is their main player and quite dangerous regarding how fast the lad is not to forget that he's skilled. but what awed me was Manchester City winning against Arsenal which left the gunners dropping to number 5 in the table and a raise from 15 to 11 for the blue moon. for Ireland, he's always the one creating the unexpected goal for the team and the one the defenders care less in marking as their main focus are on Robinho, Elano & supposedly Wright-Phillips. Arsenal had Fabregas on suspension while players like Walcott and Adebayor are injured when they were on international duties. i don't limit my love for football just within England so i have other teams i like from other countries as well. I support Barcelona, Real Madrid, Villarreal & Valencia. 2 of the teams i support sadly have it draw also while Villareal unfortunately lost in their match.

La Liga (Espana)

Barcelona vs Getafe: 1-1
Camp Nou, Barcelona

Real Madrid vs RC Recreativo Huelva: 1:0
Santiago Bernabeu, Madrid

Villarreal vs Real Valladolid: 0-3
Estadio El Madrigal, Valencia

Sevilla vs Valencia: 0-0
Estadio Ramon Sanchez Pizjuan, Seville

here's the current for La Liga (source: http://www.soccernews.com/la-liga-table/):

Something About My Sisters

2008-11-21T02:09:00.000-08:00

Something About My Sisters <333

i have two little sisters who are COMPLETELY the opposite of each other that they fight or bicker with each other everyday. i'm the one who always break them up or shut them up~ but strange thing is that i'm close to them both and can relate to them in a way they both truly don't understand. i'd love to describe the personality of both of my sisters~

Tikah (in Barca) and Fatin (in InterMilan) sat outside the house feeding Jojo (that explains the milk carton xD)

Tikah: She's 4 years younger than me but very cool. she's into football (more or equally as it's with me) and she supports Portsmouth, Manchester City & Liverpool. for someone so young, she understands what i'm going through and she's the one i share my problems with :D she's very dependable when i need help and she's the first person to know if there's something wrong with me or if i'm sick~ when she ask if i'm alright, i'd say i'm fine but in the end, i'll always tell her that i'm holding my pain within. a habit she dislikes of me and which my parents hate it too xD what can i say? i don't like to talk about pain~ she's athletic and great in sports like handball, soccer (she mastered some moves and currently trying to do the ronaldo move which Jojo (our kitten) is the victim xD) and netball. a total joker in the family, never failed to make the family laugh and usually, we'll find our stomach on the floor by too much laughter. she enjoys my stupid yet creative stories and always beg for more which at times, i'm lazy to think up any story for her xD she's the one who reads and love my poems from heart and i always ask for her opinion before posting any poems online. when i have no idea what to call my work, she's the one who names them~~ she's crazy for rubik's cube and she has solved some of the cubes existed in this world with the help of pogobot (well he helps everyone on youtube xD). she's awesome with photoshop and she's the one who made my banner with my husband, Moutinho in it :D she listens to all kind of music but the scariest one she listens to is from Rammstein, a German band. i mean the band has scary or eerie music and the singers voice just adds the creepiness of the song. they sound as if they can revive someone from the dead!!! Rammstein beats the screamo bands Fatin listens to xD overall, she's the greatest 13 year old girl i've known so far and love to bits :D she has a blog also, if you wanna check it go to http://growingupfootball.blogspot.com/

Shamin with Tikah (LOL they look as if they're RELATED)

Fatin: she calls herself either Tubie or banana man for some crazy reason xD she's pretty hyper and LOVES to ramble about stupid stuff with an annoying mafia/nigga/countryside accent of hers. at times i wanna punch her for it but then again, it made me laugh. she's addicted to the internet and at one time, she slept at 7.10am just after she finished making, converting and uploading a freaking video on youtube! haha i stayed up till 4am in creating the video alongside her xD between us three girls, she's the craziest and the funniest of us all. i mean, she's very unexpected whenever she jokes around, for example: when she was playing the wii with Tikah, they were racing against each other and out of the blue, she drifts then shouts "THIS IS FOR UNCLE WALCOTT!!!" when she doesn't even know who's Walcott!!! xDDD it was hilarious and she's not even a fan of football but strangely, supports Inter Milan o.0 she's into music and she will LITERALLY die without listening to any music! she found awesome bands like The Almost, Family Force 5, Brokencyde and stuff. Into emos, scenes, gays, bisexuals, transsexuals and her iPod~ she's pretty demanding and a bit nagging at times which is a reason for me to strangle her but i love her too much to even do it xD she's into her hair also but strangely, she fashioned it into something similar to a peacock's tail~ she's is FAR FROM athletic compare to Tikah as there was a time when she was forced to be a goalie and as a goalie, you're suppose to catch or prevent the ball from going into the net. but for her, that's NOT the case. she squeals and run for cover leaving the net unattended. i laughed my ass off to what she did xD she loves to scream whenever i take her side on the bed which annoys and deafens me most of the time. she always complain, curse and insult on everything. she's like a perfectionist from my view but that's her, she's the random little dwarf that curses who looks cute with a ribbon! oh yeah forget to mention, she looks serious and dull from the outside but in the inside, she's the craziest corrupted 11 year old you'll ever meet in your whole live.

Fatin as David Villa, SAME xD (if Liyana would know, she'd kill me)

well that's pretty much what i can say about my sisters but words, can't actually describe completely on how special and unique they are :D i love both of them whole-heartedly ^^

This is Jojo, the family's kitten and the victim of Tikah's Ronaldo technique xD

Saturday Football (15.11.08)

2008-11-15T09:31:00.000-08:00

Saturday Football (supposedly to be posted on the 15th)

Bolton Wanderers- Liverpool: 0-2
Reebok Stadium

full report: http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/match/last_match/match_report/index.htm

My thought: Liverpool should have got 0-6 there with Bolton but with luck not on their side, they've managed to get 0-2 only (which i'm far grateful than to have them at nil or losing). the 4 chances that might have got them 6 were: 1) when Kuyt made a low drill through the 6 yard box, Keane was unable to kick the ball into the net as he used his right foot instead of his left (should have been 2 in the 1st half) 2) Torres' low passing towards the box where Gerrard, who's right in front of the post, unfortunately kicked the ball few inches away from the goal post. (should have been 3 in the 2nd half) 3) Torres' strong shot towards the net but sadly hits the crossbar and bounced back into the field (should have been 5 in the 2nd half) 4) Lucas Leiva missed a goal where his heading lacked accuracy (should have been 6 in the 2nd half) if they actually got six, there's a possibility that they might catch up with Chelsea's crazy, wide goal difference.

Arsenal- Aston Villa: 0-2
Emirates Stadium

full report: http://www.arsenal.com/match/report/0809/post/first-team/arsenal-0-2-aston-villa-match-report?tab=report
My thought: Arsenal was showing off great performances but once you come across Agbonlahor, you just have to pray you can stop the guy from scoring for Aston Villa. he's like the Messi for BPL and England, once the ball is with him, the time you see it away from him will be when the ball is in the net.

Him (I Terribly Miss)

2008-11-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

"Him (I Terribly Miss)"

My container of feelings and tears,
My diary that I wrote my problems into,
And the quilt that kept me warm,
I've lost it all along with you,
Like running through a garden of roses,
Thorns that scratched my body,
I'll survive till the end cause I know,
You're there to help and heal me,
I could have given my full trust to anyone,
I could have showered my love completely on anyone,
But instead I chose you of all people,
Because you seem different from everyone,
Fireworks on a calm silent night,
Those colorful sparks in the sky are for you,
You deserve so much more than that,
Believe it or not that's true,
The kindness you wrapped myself into,
The concern you knew I needed,
Home is what I feel when I'm with you,
You've really been the friend in deed,
All of these brought me crying,
Knowing that now you're nowhere near me,
My world seems to lose its color,
As the one who painted it has forgotten me completely.

12.11.2008

2008-11-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

6 more days till exam is over! *excited* i can't wait for the REAL holiday :D but before that, i seriously need to straighten some things with someone because if i don't do it soon, there won't be any chance for me to see or even talk to this person again! it already drives me crazy knowing that he likes me but it drives me more insane when my best friend told me that he said sorry and wouldn't bother me anymore. wait, how can he apologize for that when he's NOT even bothering??? i mean screw the apology, what i want is for him to be back to the guy i used to know and have fun with. dude, you're funny and you always make me laugh but with you avoiding me i don't think i'm gonna be having those old times anytime sooner. it's kinda weird how he changed so drastically yet so suddenly... i missed how we use to talk and joke around like before. *sigh*

alright enough about that, i'll move on with what my sister SHOULD be doing 2 days ago. i fell asleep at 7pm (yes that freaking early and that's a world record) and at i-don't-know-what-time it was when there was a highlight regarding the champions league where 3 of my rarely seen-on-tv husbands were there! i BADLY want to see them moving (yes literally) and sadly my sisters didn't freaking wake me up when they KNOW i want to see them for weeks already!!! not only that, they didn't even bother waking up me for Intan ;____; yes i watch sinetron dramas like the other people in Brunei and the story is very interesting but can be very sakit kepala because of Intan's problems with the people around her who can't accept her relationship with Rado for the time being. haha makin jauh cerita ku ah xD oh yeah, last sunday i went to the empire with my family to watch James Bond, Quantum of Solace. seems thrilling at first but as the story goes along, it's not that hot anymore. he's too serious as he wanted revenge on the death of Vesper or something like that. so i prefer Casino Royale than Quantum of Solace~ sorry Craig, this one isn't your best movie as James Bond so far :P anyway i'm just gonna upload random pics to add more color to this post ;D

Moutinho exchanging jerseys with Figo at the end of a match

James Bond: Quantum of Solace (he looked rather funny here)

from me for today ;D

2008-11-06T00:47:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since i last posted anything here (regarding my personal life that is :D) i'm still going through the O level exam which i wish would end ASAP! anyway, there's this song i've been effin trying to find for like months and finally, FINALLY i found that song! *grin* i mean i have the english version but come on, spanish is more sexy~ no? speaking of sexy, my 9th husband is a real star player but sadly plays for Sporting :'( not because of the club, it's because the time of their live matches are usually at odd crazy hours and if it's not for the European League, i wouldn't have seen him play at all! that goes the same to my 8th darling who's playing in Villareal~~ *sniff* i miss you my Rossi ;____; if Manchester United is going against Villareal, so gonna watch the game just for the sake of watching him play again :D

Giuseppe Rossi (at the middle)

i want for school to be over as to would be heaven for me! to my best friends, i'm gonna miss you guys like hell but i know that you KNOW why i would want that so much (: right, randomness put aside.. i hate being a third wheel or the last option. really that effin sucks. it's not like it's the first time i've been in a situation like this, this HAPPENED BEFORE. *sigh* this is why i despise love to the fullest, i'm never taken seriously like any other girl. a guy once told me, "i like you for your smile and your personality" and i was glad to know that but... that's pretty much it. i'm a dull girl who has 50/50 boy girl kind of personality with a dash of kindness, care and friendliness :D damn what the hell am i rambling about? eccentricity is me for the time being xD

Ruben De la Red. sexy ain't he?

AM matches that kept me awake

2008-10-29T17:27:00.000-07:00

Liverpool vs Portsmouth: 1-0
Anfield, Liverpool

LFC won with 1-0 against Portsmouth last night and bagged another 3 points for the team. the goal was a PK made by Gerrard in the 74' min. from the attempted shots made by the players, it could have gotten LFC greater goals if luck was on their side but sadly, most shots are either blocked or caught by the keeper. during the first half, Kuyt's and Arbeloa's shots are both possible goals for the team but unfortunately, James blocked Kuyt's ball with both hands and as for Arbeloa's, it was a few inches away from the goal post. for the second half, they started high-spirited like usual but as time passed on, they began weakening as the ball was mostly obtained or possessed by the opposing team. if they weren't too tired, they might have played a better game than what they performed last night. nevertheless, the one goal is enough to keep LFC still on top of the league.

Liverpool: Reina, Aurelio, Hyypia, Carragher, Arbeloa, Babel, Alonso, Leiva, Pennant, Gerrard (captain), Kuyt. Subs - Benayoun, Keane, Dossena, Riera, Cavalieri, Mascherano, Agger

Portsmouth: James, Traore, Distin (captain), Kaboul, Pamarot, Belhadj, Davis, Diop, Diarra, Utaka, Crouch. Subs - Ashdown, Mvuemba, Hughes, , Defoe, Kranjcar, Hreidarsson

Alonso possesses ball from Crouch

Arsenal vs Tottenham Hotspur: 4-4
Emirates Stadium, North London

it was an amazing match and the outcome was absolutely unexpected! Tottenham is blessed with a new manager, Harry Redknapp (ex-Pompey manager) as he changed the team dramatically from losers to a winning, strong team. Tottenham already got talented players and clearly it was the one that managed the team before was the problem so there's no surprise that they're suddenly appear as a confident and risky team with Redknapp. in the first half, the score was 1-1 with Tottenham leading by Bentley's goal from a long range at 13' min and equalized later by Arsenal's Silvestre during the team's corner kick at 37' min. During the second half, Arsenal scored their second goal with Gallas heading a ball from their corner kick at 46' min. Adebayor also scored at 64' min where he was running towards the passed ball by Nasri in mid-air and quickly kicked it into the net before the defender had any chance in kicking it out. Now the score became 3-1 but that changed at 67' as Tottenham's Huddlestone shot a low drive but blocked by Almunia and Bent who was nearby, took a chance and shots for the net. He scored making it 3-2, but a minute after that Arsenal bagged another goal with Van Persie leaving them with 4-2. everyone was confident that Arsenal would be the match's winner but at 89' min, Jenas unexpectedly goaled as he shots for the net. High-spirited & confident, Tottenham tried their luck for an equalizer and within the additional minute, 90+(5) Lennon made the last goal which immediately ends the game with 4-4.

Bentley celebrates his goal

chelsea-liverpool 0-1

2008-10-26T21:54:00.000-07:00

Chelsea- Liverpool: 0-1
Stamford Bridge

Liverpool on top with 23 pts (table taken from the official site)

last night Liverpool have proven themselves credentials to the title as the beat Chelsea at Stamford Bridge with 1-nil after! Liverpool is now on top with 23 pts and the only team that hasn't been beaten so far. it's an incredible season for them so far especially with this record. finally they're the one who beats Chelsea's record of 86 unbeaten matches. the last time Chelsea was beaten at home was back in January 2004. both team played their best and it was a thrilling and fantastic game. the first and winning goal for Liverpool was in the first half at 10' and it was a deflection made by Alonso. The stadium was filled with Liverpool chants after that leaving Chelsea fans slumping down their seats. After that, Chelsea didn't fool around as they began to strike forward and attempted many tries in hoping for an equalizer. Liverpool maintained their leading goal by defending and blocking Chelsea's ball as the second half commenced. I'm just stating little bits of the match since i'm out of words on how to describe the amazing match so here's the breakdown of the match full time.

Keane possessing the ball from Terry

Source: Liverpoolfc.tv

13:34 GMT : Match Starts
1 min : Chelsea get the game underway at the Bridge
2 mins : Bosingwa is caught in possession but Gerrard can't get in behind the Chelsea defence and Cech gathers
3 mins : Alonso loses his footing and Deco has a shot at goal which is deflected behind for a corner
7 mins : Kalou is flagged offside down the right as Chelsea look for an opening. Home side have had more of the ball so far
10 mins : GOAL! Xabi Alonso: Alonso's left footed strike is deflected past Cech to give us the dream start
14 mins : Lampard slips the ball into Kalou who should do better but shoot tamely at Reina
17 mins : Riera goes past Bosingwa down the left and fires disappointingly wide. We're well on top at the moment
21 mins : First Booking: Albert Riera: Foul on Bosingwa
22 mins : Bosingwa sends in a cross from the right which Kalou heads well over Reina's goal
25 mins : Stunning dipping volley from Gerrard is met with an equally brilliant save from Cech who tips the ball over for a corner
29 mins : Carragher helps the ball back to Reina under pressure from a couple of Chelsea players
33 mins : Lampard shoots from distance and Carragher blocks at the expense of a corner
36 mins : Deco regains the ball for Chelsea and charges forward into space before striking wide of target from 20 yards
38 mins : First Booking: Steven Gerrard:
40 mins : Deco sends another shot goalwards which is deflected over for another corner
14:20 GMT : Half Time Reached
14:37 GMT : Second Half Begins
46 mins : Liverpool get the second half underway. Can we hold on and move three points clear at the top?
47 mins : Chance rightaway for Keane but he can't take advantage and the home side clear
49 mins : Bosingwa clatters into Aurelio and wins a free kick on the right hand side
52 mins : Malouda has space on the left but his cross is well defended by Carragher
53 mins : First Booking: Florent Malouda:
55 mins : Kalou is taken out by Reina in the area but the flag is already up for offside
56 mins : First Booking: Ashley Cole:
57 mins : Kuyt goes for goal and isn't too far away from the far post
57 mins : Substitution: Franco Di Santo for Salomon Kalou:
57 mins : Substitution: Juliano Belletti for Florent Malouda:
60 mins : Substitution: Ryan Babel for Robbie Keane:
61 mins : Alonso's free kick comes crashing back off the base of the post - what a great effort
65 mins : First Booking: Javier Mascherano:
66 mins : Mascherano has space down the right but can't find a teammate with a cross into the danger area
73 mins : Best chance Chelsea have had for a while as the ball falls to Ashley Cole but he fires his volley well wide
76 mins : Great defending from Carragher to deny Deco as he prepares to pull the trigger inside the area
77 mins : Babel turns outside the area and fires a low shot just wide across Cech's goal
79 mins : First Booking: Deco :
85 mins : Substitution: Scott Sinclair for Jose Bosingwa:
85 mins : Kuyt has space on the right but his low cross is defended by Terry
88 mins : Substitution: Lucas Leiva for Dirk Kuyt:
15:25 GMT : Match Over

Arbeloa defending the ball from Malouda

13 talented players

2008-10-22T23:53:00.000-07:00

just to add more post in this month, i've decided to post 13 of my current favorite players :D they're all talented, quick and only some has massive techniques :)

Fernando Torres (Liverpool)

Zlatan Ibrahimovic (Inter Milan)

Joao Moutinho (Sporting Lisbon)

Miguel Veloso (Sporting Lisbon)

Vedran Corluka (Tottenham Hotspur)

Samir Nasri & Robin Van Persie (Arsenal)

Ricardo Quaresma (Inter Milan)

Mathieu Valbuena (Marseille)

Steven Gerrard (Liverpool)

Cesc Fabgregas, Iker Casillas & Xavi Hernandez (Arsenal, Real Madrid & Barcelona)

latest CL table

2008-10-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

This is the current CL table and it's the third match for every club in their respective groups. i've taken a copy of the table from the site (the link is just below) just so i can share it with my friends who wants to know the latest CL table. Only for that purpose.

Source: (BBC SPORT)

UEFA Champions League : Group A

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Chelsea	3	2	1	0	5	0	5	7
2	CFR Cluj-Napoca	3	1	1	1	2	2	0	4
3	Roma	3	1	0	2	4	4	0	3
4	Bordeaux	3	1	0	2	2	7	-5	3

UEFA Champions League : Group B

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Inter Milan	3	2	1	0	4	1	3	7
2	Anorthosis Famagusta	3	1	1	1	3	2	1	4
3	Werder Bremen	3	0	3	0	3	3	0	3
4	Panathinaikos	3	0	1	2	3	7	-4	1

UEFA Champions League : Group C

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Barcelona	3	3	0	0	10	2	8	9
2	Sporting Lisbon	3	2	0	1	4	3	1	6
3	Shakhtar Donetsk	3	1	0	2	3	4	-1	3
4	Basle	3	0	0	3	1	9	-8	0

UEFA Champions League : Group D

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Liverpool	3	2	1	0	6	3	3	7
2	Atletico Madrid	3	2	1	0	6	2	4	7
3	PSV Eindhoven	3	1	0	2	3	6	-3	3
4	Marseille	3	0	0	3	2	6	-4	0

UEFA Champions League : Group E

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Man Utd	3	2	1	0	6	0	6	7
2	Villarreal	3	2	1	0	7	3	4	7
3	Celtic	3	0	1	2	0	4	-4	1
4	AaB Aalborg	3	0	1	2	3	9	-6	1

UEFA Champions League : Group F

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Bayern Munich	3	2	1	0	5	1	4	7
2	Lyon	3	1	2	0	8	6	2	5
3	Fiorentina	3	0	2	1	2	5	-3	2
4	Steaua Bucharest	3	0	1	2	3	6	-3	1

UEFA Champions League : Group G

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Arsenal	3	2	1	0	10	3	7	7
2	Dynamo Kiev	3	1	2	0	2	1	1	5
3	FC Porto	3	1	0	2	3	6	-3	3
4	Fenerbahce	3	0	1	2	3	8	-5	1

UEFA Champions League : Group H

		P	W	D	L	F	A	GD	PTS
1	Juventus	3	2	1	0	5	3	2	7
2	Real Madrid	3	2	0	1	5	3	2	6
3	BATE Borisov	3	0	2	1	3	5	-2	2
4	Zenit St Petersburg	3	0	1	2	2	4	-2	1

Locked Within

2008-10-15T16:05:00.000-07:00

"Locked Within"

I'm soaking wet in tears,
And I really know the reason why,
It's happening, my very fear,
That we're coming to an end,
Gasping for oxygen,
I'm trying to take this realization in,
I understand everything but not this,
Don't you know I'm hurt within?
I care less for the time needed,
For me to wait for you,
Just as long as I know you're there for me,
Regardless of things you're up to,
You're the only person alive,
To be cared and loved completely,
To be placed in a special spot,
Especially the fact you're not a crush to me,
Open space for me to breathe,
Acceptance that allows me to be myself,
Only you're able to give me such freedom,
But then again it's you who I can't help,
From deciding to stop and forgetting to stay,
If only you state the problem clearly,
We might figure or sort out a way,
You know exactly how important you are to me,
I guess I was too late to realize,
That you were driving out of my world,
I can't believe that it's actually happening,
That I'm left and back as that locked within girl.

October, my fave month

2008-10-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

October has been my favorite month regardless the fact that it's a month of public exams and such. a reason why i love this month is because my birthday is in this month :D it was on the 12th October and i'm officially 17 now! just 3 more years then i'll be 20~~ anyway, i wanna say happy belated and advance birthday to the ones whose birthday are in this month :)))

3/10- Zlatan Ibrahimovic & Sir Saiful
10/10- Malina
11/10- Ivo's lil sis
12/10- Henri Lansbury & Azmi
13/10- Akmal
16/10- Philipp Kohlschreiber (Mr. Alluring) & Zoltan Steiber
17/10- Ivan Saenko
19/10- Babu Mai
27/10- Shamin
31/10- Athari & Hearlley (i think...)

that's the only people i can recall so far but to those i've forgotten, i apologize. anyway so sorry for not posting anything for so long, i've been busy with other things (i'm not lying and it has 23% of revision in it). oh yeah, i'm currently into electronica such as Electric Valentine (i've mentioned them before). so here's the name of the bands and solo artists i frequently listen to:

Breathe Carolina

Kill Paradise

Owl City

Electric Valentine

Nevershoutnever!

The Script

Krystal Meyers

Justin Nozuka

Liverpool vs PSV Eindhoven 3-1 win (:

2008-10-01T13:38:00.000-07:00

Liverpool vs PSV Eindhoven: 3-1
Anfield, Liverpool

Liverpool won the match against PSV Eindhoven with a great play. the first goal was made by Kuyt at 4' and it was his first goal so far since his last against Standard Liege at 117'. the second goal was miraculously made my Keane at 35' as it became his first goal since joining Liverpool. the ball was brought forward by Torres as he's in the right hand side and he gave a low crossing or passing to Keane, who's in the box, then he quickly kicked the ball into the net. both goals were made in the first half leaving PSV with nil. as the second half starts, PSV began to pick up their pace as they took more ball possession than Liverpool in the first half. However the reds were awarded with a free kick at 76' and Gerrard took that kick. as expected from Gerrard, he gave an amazing drive that the keeper was unable to catch his ball. this became Liverpool's third goal and Gerrard's 100th goal. it was a relieve to see the score 3-0 but not later after that, PSV scored a consolation goal made by Danny Koevermans. so it was 3-1 and that score remains the same until the game ended.

Keane celebrates his 1st Liverpool goal (photo taken from LFC's official site)

Liverpool: Arbeloa, Aurelio, Carragher, Skrtel, Gerrard, Alonso, Riera, Kuyt, Torres, Keane & Riera. Subs: Babel, Benayoun, Mascherano, Lucas, Dossena, Cavalieri & Agger.

PSV Eindhoven: Isaksson, Salcido, Culina, Brechet, Kromkamp, Mendez, Simons, Marcellis, Wuytens, Amrabat & Bakkal. Subs: Ramos, Nyland, Rodriguez, Dzsudzsak, Zonneveld, Pieters, Koevermans.

the end of a great month ;___;

2008-10-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of Ramadhan (i'm gonna miss this great month) and tomorrow is Raya! yeah for the money (haha gila ampau banar) and boo for the many houses we have to visit ;___; well at least it gives a chance for us Lumut people to reunite with our city cousins, it's been long since i've met them last. anyway, during this wonderful month my siblings, our mother and me have been baking biscuits and such for Raya. it's been fun really and my favorite was making kuih mor (mum makes it the best in the world :D) and ipok-ipok (my brother make it funny at first where the ipok-ipok is lebar but then he improved and made it cute) Insyallah, i'll post some pictures captured by my brother during our ipok-ipok making session. i'm sad that Ramadhan is finally over ;___; so many memorable things happened in this month.

anyway, we'll be back to school in a matter of days now and i'm scared. as soon as i enter school back, i'll have exactly one week before the huge exam. an exam that'll determine what future we're gonna have and what live will we lead to. i'm anticipating for this exam but i still feel i'm unprepared for it. i could feel my eyes about to burst out with tears when i think about it. i seriously target for 8 O's and i hope to get a scholarship so i could study abroad and do my A levels there. but then if the scholarship promises me to be a teacher or somewhere in the education department, i'll definitely reject it and continue 6th form in SMSA. this are my two options and i'm not sure which one to pick: study abroad or continue sixth form. i want to be like my dad's friend and somewhere deep inside me, i look up to him as a role model even though i've only met him once. well that's pretty much for this post :)

my new adorable cousin :)

2008-09-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday i went to my grandparent's place just to visit my aunt who gave birth last Sunday. my dad was on duty that Sunday that we can't visit her on that day. anyway when we arrive there, we found a very adorable baby boy! i asked for his name and surprisingly... it was Ryyan (pronounce as Ryan). it was really cool when i first heard it i mean come on, how many Ryan's do you know here in Brunei who is actually muslim? for the first time, i was gerigitan brabis with the baby. i look at him most of the time and if he's awake, i would make faces just to see him smile. matanya sepet by the way [: anyway, here's how he looks like:

he's SOOOO adorable~~ (malarku kacau ia. he looks more adorable if he's awake :D)

we stayed there till night, yes sampat sungkai disana and the feast for sungkai was... belambak makanan kana sediakan! it was hard to finish everything and i was surprise to see chicken cuts cook in 3 different ways served that evening. bah manakan dipilih tu? my 2 year-old cousin Iman pun payah kan milih. last-lastnya, i took the salai one and the one nenek goreng. okay masa malam menjelang, Iman brought his bag which is filled with various types of fireworks. my siblings and i were bising when we saw it and we ask his mommy where she bought. well it was my granddaddy's work, he bought it for Iman. Iman then runs to my Usu and asked for a lighter (yes he said lighter correctly) then bring it to my dad and asked him to light the firework. my dad, my aunt, my sisters and i went outside just to satisfy Iman with his fireworks aka let him play with it under many many supervision.while he's playing, my brother and i took pictures of him doing so (my camera's phone ain't that hot capturing the perfect shot). there are other shots i've got on yesterday but i just select a few from it all. enjoy (:

Iman main bunga api (:

the night scenery of the mosque across my grandparent's house =D

a kitten i found in the kitchen. cute like Shrek's puss in boots huh?

basshunter & brokencyde

2008-09-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

i've heard of basshunter before but i care less to who he is and what he does. 2 days ago my brother reminded me of basshunter and he asked me to listen to a song of his called dota. i pretty much love the beat right away and his voice is sexy! i fell in love with his music and his voice~~ he's pretty good looking (especially when his hair is black) for a 23 year old swedish though ;D

another great song i heard was from brokencyde called freaxxx. the song is a mixture of screamo and rap which i found quite... retarded at first but after actually hearing the song, i was TOTALLY in love with it. i mean they're like awesome and the lyrics crack me up. they appear as scene kids and can be an eyesore to look at but still, some of their songs are catchy and awesome (: so yeah here's the lyrics:

Freaxxx- Brokencyde

I walk into the club looking kind of sexy now.
I see these shorties in the corner, they started making out.
They pull their panties down, they take their pants off.
Then they started getting freaky on the dance floor.
Shake it mommy give it to me like you need some love.
I got some bottles in the caddy that we can open up.
Let's get drunk tonight, baby we don't have to fuck.
And bring your friend along, maybe we can have some fun.

Let's get freaky now, let's get fucking freaky now. [x4]
I got these bitches all tipsy trying to sex me.
I know they want it, alcoholics are some sex freaks.
This ex and chronic gots me wanting to get messy.
So let's get messy girls, come on let's go get messy girls.
Come on bitch, you know you want this.
That hardcore shit will make you feel the toxic.
Fursachi, Rolex watches.
Bently coups with the 20's droppin.
Convertible top, and the wheels spin.
I can taste that ice when my grill is in.
If you want me baby feel me in.
'cause I don't waste my time with lesbians.

Let's get freaky now, let's get fucking freaky now. [x4]
Liar! [x8] Oh baby why did you have to lie to me.
I can't play no more games.
These thoughts are slowly controlling me.
You're turning off the flame.
So go baby go baby.
You don't want me.
So go baby go baby.
Come and get me.
So go baby go baby.
You don't want me.
So go baby go! Come and get me.
Let's get freaky now, let's get fucking freaky now. [x4]

LFC VS MUFC: 2-1 (:

2008-09-13T06:55:00.000-07:00

Liverpool FC VS Manchester United FC: 2-1
Anfield, Liverpool

for 4 years or more finally Liverpool beats Manchester United! i'm proud and happy to be a Liverpool supporter~~ i know you people might say the first goal was an own goal and if it weren't for that, Liverpool wouldn't have won but who cares? as long as it brings victory to LFC then be it. i'm happy with Babel's goal in the 77'. well it was brought forward into the box by Mascherano with Giggs securing him near the byline and to think the ball might be out, he just passed it to the back before that could happen and Kuyt possess it then pass it to Babel and yes, he made the second and winning goal. Kuyt however played amazingly but sadly luck wasn't on his side. his three attempts to score for the team was unfortunately saved by Van Der Sar or just lack of accuracy but if the last attempt was a success, then it'd be a 3-1 win. but i'm still grateful that LFC won this match (:

OG made by Brown

another reason why i'm happy is that they played great after a shock from Tevez's goal in the 3' minute. instead of being nervous or worried like Croatia, they took the shock as a wake up call and quickly, change their method of play. the poor passing accuracy seemed to lessen drastically and they would bring the ball forward and constantly attempting for a goal or two. fantastic performances from Kuyt, Riera, Arbeloa and Skrtel eased my worries while watching the match :D yes they pressured MUFC players which helped the reds in the match and the commentators did state MUFC play was quite sloppy. a huge factor for the win was that Gerrard and Babel were sent on field and the fact that Ronaldo wasn't available for MUFC in this match (: another happy thing about LFC was that they could play well without Torres in the game and this shows that they don't rely on one player to make a great play. well done Liverpool FC~~

Walcott satisfied with his goal

on the 11th of September, i was really frustrated with Croatia's lost to England with 1-4 in Zagreb. Walcott scored hat-trick and Rooney a goal for England which pulverized Croatia completely and clearly, the Croats were shock and unstable throughout the game especially after the first goal by Walcott. Pletikosa lost his focus after that score where 2 other similar easy score can't even be saved by him. i blamed him for lack of concentration and also the defenders (sorry Corluka, you guys were unstable too) as they were insecure. they were short of a player since Robert Kovac was sent off with a red card for injuring England's J. Cole. but instead of giving up completely, Croatia was able to pull themselves together through out the game. their goal was made by Mandzukic somewhere in the 80+' minute. despite the fact that they lost, it was just 4-1 not 4 nil. what i hate about this match was that their manager, Slaven Bilic talked big and was very confident that Croatia would win once more where actually, it's the other way around. so much for your words Bilic...

malay oral wasn't easy..

2008-09-09T01:39:00.000-07:00

hey it's deeb. haha who else? anyway, i'm still in recovery but i'm feeling a bit okay than before. dad wrote a letter to the school stating that i would take 4 days off just for recovery. oh yeah, i'm able to fast meaning i'm slowly doing okay (: anyway, i had to attend school during the afternoon today because of malay oral exam. i was quite nervous and no, there wasn't any anticipation in me for the oral. although i'm malay, i'm not really good in malay. LOL i'm just like Alex Evans only he's french and he's bad at it xD

malay oral was HARD. thank god i took malay in the june o level and got a credit for it because the oral i went through today wasn't looking good. reading and answering questions based on the passage was easy but during the conversation came the hard part. i was given a topic on the education in Brunei and hell it was a difficult topic to discuss about. i've never think for answers for their questions as long as this before. i mean usually i take 1 or 2 minutes to answer questions but this time, i took almost 6 minutes to come up with a rational answer. there's this one question i had to think for a long time that i forgot the question and yes, i request for a repeat on what the question was about 0_0 the scary part was... the examiners weren't smiling or laughing AT ALL. that just give us o level candidates doubt in passing the oral. well at least it's over with and i just hope i passed it.

alright change topic. in releasing stress, i look for random pictures and i found cute animals and cute desserts! here's the pictures~~~

corluka's transfer: i'm happy for him

2008-09-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

i would like to congratulate Corluka on his last game for MCFC where he played marvelously and i'm happy for him that he transferred to Tottenham Hotspurs. he's quite happy on that transfer and it really brought me smiling that he'll be joining his bestfriend, Luca Modric too. it was hard for me to actually believe this happened but then i learn to accept that this is real. Corluka, I'm going to support you no matter where you are and i respect your decision and i know you're moving to the best team. best of lucks there and i'll be anticipating for your first match for Hotspurs (: again i wish all the best for this talented defender~ as to show i support you and how you were a big reason why i support and love MCFC, here's a poem i wrote just for you.

"Corluka: thank you & i'll always support you"

Suddenly everything stopped,
Then I realize there's a hole in my heart,
Something went temporarily dead,
As I heard on your depart,
I knew it before but i refuse to believe,
Seeing you still at City was a relieve,
You brought me to this place,
To support, to cheer and to cry for,
I came to accept and to love,
Then slowly you made me proud of,
A team that's almost reaching for the above,
Thank you for bringing me to this club,
Showing me to one of the best,
Your leave hurts but I'm still here for MCFC,
And as you're in Spurs you can count on me,
To support you all the way like how in City,
Then came in September,
The deal turns to reality,
You took off that jersey,
And forever you leave City.

my top 5 faves

2008-08-30T22:46:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna make a second post today which has my top five fave of everything (: this is done just for fun~ my top 5 fave:

football players 1. Vedran Corluka 2. Fernando Torres 3. Cesc Fabregas 4. Michael Johnson 5. Steven Gerrard

artist/band (current) 1. Electric Valentine 2. Jeffree Star (strangely...) 3. Colonia 4. Akcent 5. Family Force 5

colors 1. blue 2. red 3. white 4. purple 5. gold
stones 1. diamond 2. sapphire 3. ruby 4. emerald 5. amethyst? or was it topaz..

criminals 1. Armin Meiwes (still) 2. Katherine Knight 3. Josef Fritzl 4. Steven Jay Russell 5. Ted Bundy (classic)

food 1. chicken croissants 2. smoke beef baguettes 3. ice creams & gelato 4. cakes (chocolate & lemon especially) 5. delicacies like blueberry danish
make-up 1. lip gloss 2. lipsticks 3. powder 4. blusher 5. foundation...

accessories 1. bracelets 2. necklaces 3. earrings 4. rings 5. ribbons

animals 1. koalas 2. rabbits 3. hamsters 4. lion cubs 5. polar bears
songs 1. a night with you- electric valentine 2. you didn't fucking mean it- electric valentine 3. you'll never walk alone- gerry and the pacemakers 4. mirno more & tako sexy- colonia 5. kylie- akcent

used/common words 1. the hell... 2. sexy 3. hot 4. yang kesatu... ke dua... 5. bouba diop banar...

books 1. deadly seven sins (series) 2. how to kill your husband and other handy household tips 3. pleasure trap 4. the notebook 5. a walk to remember

movies 1. the illusionist 2. perfume: story of a murderer 3. pride and prejudice 4. blades of glory 5. garden state

lol that's pretty much what i can come up with x) the picture below is just to add colors to this post (as if the colors here aren't enough xD) and as well to promote electric valentine. they SHOULD be known by the world. THEY-ARE-AMAZING.

arsenal against newcastle united 3-0!

2008-08-30T22:02:00.000-07:00

Arsenal won against Newcastle United last night with 3-0! yeah and their ranking went from 7 up to no 2 in the league's table (: i'm so happy with their win and especially with their play. lol fabregas look hot especially with his new cut *drools* god that man can melt me easily with just a smile from him xD

the current table

anyway, the first (PK) and second goal were made by Van Persie in the first half and the third goal was made by Denilson in 60'. it was a pass made by Nasri to Adebayor then to Denilson thus he made the goal. Nasri played fantastically and i idolize the guy. it was clearly seen the guy have strong and massive technical skills going on with him. substitution were made, eboue with song bilong and van persie with vela. Van Persie contributed alot in this winning and if he wasn't injured, he might have scored another goal for the club but sadly he was.

i IDOLIZED & respect Nasri. he's skilled and awesome (:

tonight at 10pm will be a match between Liverpool and Aston Villa and at 11pm Manchester City against Sunderland. now how the hell am i gonna watch both games full time without missing any parts? i just hope my sister got the time wrong on when the game starts otherwise, i'm gonna run from one room to the next just to watch two different match with two clubs i support. but thank god Arsenal's match was last night...

liverpool pride (deeb's really)

2008-08-26T23:38:00.000-07:00

.LIVERPOOL PRIDE.

Awesome banner i'd say to the one who made it (:

i love the past and the current things the same way as i do but never have i put my whole heart into it so much that it became a pride to me. i support Liverpool FC all way and i believe that i'll support this team till i'm old and wrinkly (: something about loving football and having a team to support just makes me feel proud. proud, pride and loyalty. the three things i found in loving football. here's the lyrics on LFC's song, You'll Never Walk Alone.

You'll Never Walk Alone

When you walk through the storm
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of the storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

Jordin Sparks once did a cover on this song in american idol and she sung it perfectly. i love many covers made on this song as many sung it perfectly well :D anyway, i wrote a poem about this club. i put everything i've got when i wrote it so it's pretty much a pride for me. i placed too much of myself and my thoughts into it that i can't post it here. well not just here, anywhere. it's just... too personal. LOL just screw everything if you're lost in trying to make sense out of my words.

that's pretty much of what i wanna say in this post for now so good day people (:

liverpool wins again (:

2008-08-23T20:34:00.000-07:00

Liverpool won in the match against Middlesbrough with 2-1. again, another victory for the kop (:
i just noticed there's a muslim in LFC and that's Nabil El Zhar. a pretty fast player is all i have to say~ oh yeah, here's the current table of the league;

right, i wanna congratulate Argentina as they won a gold medal in the Olympics' men football. Nigeria came in second with silver and Brazil came in third with bronze. it was cute how the Argentines celebrate their victory and how they jumped up and down on the platform excitedly when it was their turn to receive the medals.

that's pretty much what i wanna say about football (: anyway about MY life, things been going smooth and okay but it's pretty much HELL whenever it's time for chemistry. things change, BIG change. i actually cried after the lesson was over because the way the teacher was teaching, if i have a weak heart, i'd suffer from it and collapse due to a heart failure. it was a lesson in HELL and unfortunately, i have to go through chemistry 3 times in a week ;___; but it doesn't matter, i'll only have at the end of August and the whole September to attend this wretched class. i just hope i obtain a CREDIT in my chemistry and the other subjects in this oct-nov o lvl.

Argentina's heading for the finals!

2008-08-20T04:00:00.000-07:00

Beijing Olympics 2008- football men

Argentina vs Brazil: 3-0

YEAH Argentina won the semi-final and they're going to the finals against Nigeria! (of all countries... so unexpected) Argentina really thrush Brazil during last night's match. the Argentines played well and i love their play. they're fast on their feet and their awesome technical skill was visible. the match had the Brazilians 4 yellow and 2 red cards while the Argentines faced 3 yellows only. not to mention, the Brazilians faced 2 offsides and the Argentine faced no offside at all. there was NO mercy for Brazil. few outlines and pictures of last night's game:

Sergio Aguero, 16 scored 2 goals for Argentina at 52' & 58'
A Brazilian player (sorry, i can't remember his name) had his foot stuck out in front of Argentina's Riquelme Juan which tripped him in the penalty box. a penalty was given.
Riquelme Juan scored during PK at 76'
Javier Mascherano, 14 was tackled ruthlessly by Lucas and Thiago Neves of the opposing team. Both were given straight red cards and sent off.
Pareja Nicolas was given a yellow card for tackling a Brazilian player (it's clear that i FOCUS on Argentina xD)

Photos are taken from the olympics official site (:

Ronaldinho struggles to score a goal for Brazil.

One of many shots when the Argentines celebrate their victory.

Argentina deserves to go for the final and their won brought me smiling. It's sad that Italy lost in the quarterfinals against Belgium. that match WASN'T fair. most of the Belgians played rough throughout the game and the referee did small concern or nothing about their brutal play! what irritates me was when Rossi ran upward heading for the post and the GK just jumped out to him and anchored Rossi's foot leaving him to fall. what made me scream was when the referee gave Rossi a yellow card! what the hell?! he tripped and it was made by the GK! the GK was injured but it's not Rossi's fault now is it? *sigh* it was painful to see the sad expression on poor Rossi's face. Another tackle made by in the penalty box towards the Italian was another thing. the Italians WEREN'T given any penalty shoot! only god knows how pissed i was watching the whole game. when the game was over, a Belgian poked Bochetti in the shoulder and it was seen that Bochetti seemed to be in pain where actually he was faking it. it was really funny when the commenter said;

"He was pretending to be hurt! that is pathetic! what a pathetic attempt from Bochetti."

but at least the scores didn't look bad, 2-3. Italy's just a point behind them and it's pretty unfortunate that they lose and went back home ;__;

anyway, here's an outline of Italy vs Belgium match (extracted or resource from mightyfootball.com)

18′ [1 - 0] G. Rossi (pen.) T. Vermaelen (red card)
24′ [1 - 1] M. Dembele
45′ [1 - 2] K. Mirallas
74′ [2 - 2] G. Rossi (pen.)
79′ [2 - 3] M. Dembele
81′ E. Viviano (red card)

4-2 & 1-0

2008-08-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

Aston Villa vs Manchester City: 4-2 (full-time, additional 3 mins)

it's sad to know MCFC didn't win but it was a great game compare to Liverpool vs Sunderland. sorry Liverpool, you guys were great but that wasn't an impressive play at that match. anyway, the main reason for 2 or more Aston Villa's goals are because of MCFC's keeper. Joe Hart may have been capped to play for England before but his skill can't match Schmeichel's! sorry Hart but that's a fact. it's sad that Kasper is on loan with Coventry City or not he might have saved 1 0r 2 goals or shots from Agbonlahor. *sigh* i'm unhappy with their lost but i'm proud of their play. now let's leave the grieving aside and talk about the positiveness of the match.

Elano equalized during the PK at 63' and brought the first goal for the team. but no later after that, Agbonlahor scored AVFC's second goal. Corluka was awesome on field and he provided great defense for MCFC, in fact he scored his first goal for the league at 90'. i was extremely happy for this and yes, i love him even more. it was passed from Johnson to him and he was a few steps away from the post really (: again, i'm unhappy with their lost but PROUD of their play. oh yeah, they wore their new away color, orange ^^ (which at first look weird and unsuitable for them)

Congratulation on Liverpool FC on winning the match against Sunderland FC, 1-0. Torres scored for the team at 83'. Alonso tried for a long range shot and he was a few inches away from the post! what a pity. if he had been accurate, that could have been a goal for the reds! but overall, it was a brave and great attempt from him :D their play at that game wasn't the best at all, it seem like as if they don't have any strategy going on and the fact that they frequently lose grip of the ball. it was a wonder why N'gog wasn't sent to the field or played for the match since he's a potential player. i think he could score if he was playing but that's all in the past now. Rafa must have other plans for not letting him play, maybe to avoid him from being a cocky player. haha well that might be a possibility. nevertheless i'm happy with LFC and the fact that they're the away team.

Torres, one of Liverpool's frequent scorer :)

especially for today

2008-08-16T00:25:00.001-07:00

finally i am ABLE to change my background! seriously patd was starting to look boring with me being SO into football (: yeah it's the 16th already & you know what that means... the return of the PREMIER LEAGUE!!! haha i've been anticipating for this day and tonight, Liverpool's gonna beat Sunderland!!! LOL i'm just too hyper. i do hope & i DO have faith in them winning this match against Sunderland ^^

Yeah held the banner up high. I SUPPORT this team!

alright, put football aside and let's talk about reality. yeah my exams are almost over and the last day would be on the 18th, which is this Monday. what's left to go through is History paper 1. haha sounds easy huh with all the mcqs but after what i did with my paper 2, i need some SERIOUS reading and do MEMORIZE them. well i do memorize them but only at a temporary moment. haha how's that gonna help? wtf? what the hell am i blabbing about? i thought i was okay with memorizing! oh screw it, i'll just read my history books at the end anyway. right, i'm totally bored so i'm gonna post some pictures. (YAY more color to this blog of mine

an unopened fortune cookie given by my usu. haha the cookie's pink & sweet!

henry is very shy ^^ this was an old picture of them before they were sent living outside (which they're more satisfied and quite gotten bigger) i love panda (the bunny at the back) but it's own by my youngest sis, Fatin.

french fries and olivia, climbing onto the bars as soon as i open its door and yes, they were sniffing for food (:

rumours on transfer

2008-08-14T21:39:00.000-07:00

michael johnson, a midfielder from manchester city. he's one of the hot targets for this season's transfer. Arsenal, Liverpool, Tottenham Hotspur and some 4 other clubs are interested in buying him! go michael! i do hope rafa buys him for liverpool as that would do great for the team (: i'm happy about this but there's one that disappoints me to know...

Michael Johnson

corluka has been rumored to transfer to Tottenham!!! why?? manchester city said he was staying at Eastland but why the hell would he want to move to Tottenham? sure he has some interest in playing for that club but he's been great in MCFC!! let modric shine in TH alone, don't you work your magic there when he's trying to stand out and show his ability. oh corluka, i supported mcfc because of you and then there are other great players in mcfc as well like johnson, garrido & elano! good god, now if you do move i'll still support you and mcfc.

Vedran Corluka

alright, let's move to Italy's squad playing in the men football for the Olympic. i notice there's a lot of good-looking lads playing on the field when the played against ivory coast~ one of them was luca cigarini and he's effin cute! along with daniele dessena who i don't see playing on the field (but i got a picture of cigarini with him so yeah.) but cigarini got substituted during the 2nd half i think. now i do believe there are cute and YOUNG italian footballers :D

Luca Cigarini (right)

Daniele Dessena

happy birthday peeps!

2008-08-14T03:18:00.000-07:00

oh so many people have their birthday in this august so instead of making a separate post on wishing them a happy birthday, why not just list them? okay here's a belated and an advance b'day wishes to you to people:

van persie (6th August)
schweinsteiger (8th August)
tikah my sis (12th August)
kranjcar (13th August)
tua bini (15th August)
t.henry (16th August)
babu ana (19th August)
dayang (30th August)
kaka wedah (30th August)

since i can't give you guys anything, this cake will do (:

sincerely from;
Corluka's Deeb

reckless

2008-08-07T10:53:00.000-07:00

The sudden glimpse of hell,
I then start to sweat,
Followed by my body being unwell,
I began to fret,
Everything turns difficult,
When it just seems so easy,
I wasted precious moments,
That could've been used to save me,
Behind the walls as in hiding,
My conscience is at absence,
I close my eyes to avoid everything,
Except for myself, I feel no other presence,
A moment of relieve,
My mind reels in thoughts,
To escape such insanity,
I was bless to be free,
Regret was all I could do,
Not a bit more or less,
This act is nothing new,
As I once again slack to become reckless.

a day in a week

2008-08-07T09:07:00.000-07:00

god my exam is like hell. it's been quite tough really (i don't do many revision so that figures) but i know i can survive till the 18th. anyway, my team and shamin's won in commerce presentation and in some way we've been participated in the inforama carnival. it's quite exciting really ^^

we've got many work to do in so little time but i know we can finish it soon but the garu-kepala thing is that we have to stay until 3.30pm for the 2 days of the carnival. that's pretty tiring and what bothers me is that the next day after that is maths 2! haha great, more stress. well i just hope i can do it well.

alright about LFC's match against valerenga. as expected, LFC won with 4-1! again congrats to the team and i wish for gerrard to get well soon. unfortunately he was injured and it was confirmed that he suffers thigh strain but rafa said in a week or earlier, he will be back on the field. well let's just hope for the best for the LFC's captain (=

happy birthday van persie!

2008-08-05T22:47:00.000-07:00

"Happy birthday to Robin Van Persie!"

Arsenal striker's today turns 25 and we do wish him all the best (: i would like to post some pictures him for this entry ^^

(i could edit this picture wishing him happy b'day but i'm lazy to.)

Liverpool VS Glasgow Rangers: 4-0

2008-08-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

liverpool scored 4 goals in a friendly match against glasgow rangers leaving the rangers with nil! Hooray for LFC! finally some thrills from them and i notice there are new players being sent to the field:

Striker- David N'Gog (24)

Defender- Andrea Dossena (2)
Keeper- Diego Cavalieri (1)

Striker- Robbie Keane (7)

yes i knew about keane's transfer to LFC but n'gog & dossena was a surprise. nevertheless, these transfers brought victory to the team. Torres scored the first goal at 23' and N'gog with the second goal at 56' followed by Benayoun's at 60' and lastly the fourth by Alonso at 70' during the PK. N'gog showed his capability as a skilled player by scoring a goal and how his second attempt almost scored them a goal even though the attempt was unsuccessful. (the ball hits the post so it bounces back to the field) keane however did his part as a player but he hasn't show any speciality like N'gog or Dossena so that it might be hard for people to acknowledge him as a real star. well that's my point of view and i just wish him all the best ^^ oh yeah, Dossena is awesome especially when he blocked the ball out of the line when Rangers' Novo was certain to score a goal. Cavalieri is also awesome, he's a great keeper from what i've seen at the match (:

another match for Liverpool will be against Valerenga on 6th August, next week. i'm anticipating for the next match and hopefully, they win again and can bring their success to the Premier League.

many thanks to these people (:

2008-07-28T22:48:00.000-07:00

this year is my favorite year despite the terrible downs i've been through but at least the worst happens occasionally (not like last year *sigh*). in my entire school life, i finally have my favorite class and one that i love the most, which is this year's 5A. the people in my class are very easy to connect with and they understand you quite well. i see my classmates as my family or cousins really as they act that way. i would like to thank them in here also. my million of thanks goes to:

Faiqah- she's the best. she's there when i need her to listen to my problems and she never fails to brighten my day with her spunky, energetic self (: she has great sense in fashion & music and trendy which she sometimes update me with the latest things. she keeps school life sane for me really.

Yasti- my long time best friend. she's always there whenever i need some laughs and go crazy with. she along with faiqah deserve the most thanks as they always help me whenever i'm ill (once i'm ill, it's very scary) i love you both so much!

Jennifer- we're there for each other, she's like my left and i'm her right. we help and understand each other. she's pretty much the adviser whenever i'm totally screwed or in a panic.

Azimah- she's like a sister to me. she's playful and helpful especially in maths ^^ i enjoy being and hanging around with her and i can tell anything to her without thinking if she might offend me with her response. she's a wise person and i like hanging around with people like this :)

Amal- a wonderful girl. she's the only one who approached and actually befriend me when we were in form 1. i was mean to think that she took me for granted back then, but i was wrong and i've apologized to her before. i share my problems with her and she shares her with me. she's also one of the few people to brighten my day. she's somehow a friend i sometime need to be around with just to survive some insanity of the school :D

Mizah- one awesome chic i've come to know better. she's pretty random but she's fun to befriend with. a very creative person and i like that in her (: i love her drawing, it's cute!

Maisa- she's a sweet girl with a pocket full of sweets ;D seriously, she brings alot of sweets daily and i'm one of those students who ask for sweets from her. she help me most especially in BM, i keep on asking her whenever i encounter a word i don't understand. haha so much for being malay~

Shamin- the head prefect we know and love. he's a mischief at time but all the way good. he keeps my day fun by him playing around with me and easing the boredom in a boring lesson~ he's cool and care a penny less about the world but he's into the whole army thing. that's another thing that made him awesome, his interest in history. some thing we have in common (: oh yeah, he's a BIG help when it comes to arithmetic!

Ghani- he's a wise guy. not in a sarcastic way but in a good one. i can easily open up to him if i have a problem and he responds quite well for a guy. he helps me in maths (which i TOTALLY suck at) and he brings greater laughter.

Sharul- he's a nut case but he's all good. he's friendly and easy to talk with. i mean, you can talk about anything with him cause he'll just make the conversation more interesting and hilarious! he's the comic in class and yes, he always put smiles on our faces and fills laughter in the classroom.

well that's pretty much it and again thank you, to those listed above. i love you guys to bits!

5 fave crimes

2008-07-24T02:22:00.000-07:00

crime and investigation. my new passion and interest. some of the criminal activities we've seen and heard actually draws my attention in knowing why these criminals did it and for whatever reason. so here's some of my top 5 favorite crimes:

5) criminal: Terry Roy Holman
victim: Todd Bequette (13 year old boy in 1974)
crime: abducting and abusing children

4) criminal: Katherine Knight
victim: John Price (her de facto husband)
crime: manslaughter and cannibalism

3) criminal: Ronald DeFeo Jr.
victim: his entire family
crime: murdering them all at one night in 1974

2) criminal: Steven Jay Russell (the king of con)
victim: those he came across
crime: fraud and embezzlement

1) criminal: Armin Meiwes
victim: Bernd Jürgen Brandes (a willing victim of desire and to be eaten)
crime: manslaughter and cannibalism

there are more interesting crimes that i fascinate really but these 5 are currently my personal favorites as their story are disturbing, confusing, horrendous and remarkable to awe me.

what the hell?

2008-07-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

what the hell?! *uses fred's high pitch* ronaldo delayed his transfer? i remembered reading about his transfer which state him ACTUALLY transferring. pfft! i feel wackemundo (yes i created that word) for the congratulatory i've given him. well it's good for his & MUFC fans to know that he will be staying in MUFC for the time being and the fact that he will show up for the Premier's League. haha. great...

alright let's change topic: fred on cnn!

yes Fred or Lucas Cruikshank was interviewed by CNN on his fame in youtube and how he received millions of views which totally beats Miley Cyrus & the Jonas Brothers~ anyway, he's going to start his season 2 this august which my sisters and i are looking forward to it. and please please PLEASE Lucas, don't kill fred! he's TOO young to die and totally NOT worth dying because of a horse stampede! alright that's pretty much it xD

it's all about football

2008-07-21T01:02:00.000-07:00

yes the premier's league will start on the 16th of August and i'm anticipating for the event! yeah me so i can see my gorgeous men run down the field and play their games well. and hopefully, brings victory to their respective FC. i wish for the best to Liverpool and Manchester City FC. go kill the other twits boys ;D

I would like to congratulate Cristiano Ronaldo's transfer to Real Madrid as that decreases the fans of MUFC. yes SOME MUFC fans are obnoxious and totally confident that this team will win with the presence of Ronaldo so now, with him transferred... the world might be a little safer to live in (: i hope you'll do great in Real Madrid Ronaldo.

as for other news, well it's related to Chelsea's recruitment of new players. they recruited Deco from FC Barcelona with an official contract of 3 years for €10 million (8 million pounds) and for your information, he's number 20 in Chelsea. Chelsea's manager, Luiz Felipe Scolari offered a €80 million contract to AC Milan's Kaka and there's a chance that this move will come to happen! at first when Real Madrid offered a €90 million contract to Kaka last summer, Milan didn't even think of accepting that bid.

Milan also quote: "This time is different. This is the first time we feel that a deal will definitely happen."

what made Chelsea's offer interesting was the benefit for Kaka if he joined them:
a significant increase in Kaka's salary, on top of the 10 percent transfer fee that goes straight to the him anyway- estimated in a sum of €15 million.

i just hope Kaka's transfer doesn't happen. come on, half of this country's citizens hate Chelsea so don't make it worst for the fans of Kaka. they might eventually fly to London just to find Scolari and killed him for taking in their favorite player into their most hated team. i'm just saying because i oppose menacing or violent act. haha so irrelevant. oh yeah here's the thing, i don't hate Manchester United too much honestly but i just hate the fans here in this tiny country. they're always exaggerating that made me hate MUFC so much that at time, i just feel like strangling one of them. they just mock Liverpool just as bad as they talk s*** about Chelsea! no amusing at all.

brief explanation of myself

2008-07-21T00:38:00.000-07:00

i just realize something about myself. i can't be trusted or keep secrets... i've changed.

well i said something to a friend of mine and yeah there was a wee bit confidence when i said it to her. i'm here to say that it's a false statement, yes dear it's nothing real. it's just another rumor. now i simply hate to be in with the crowd and listen to any gossip or stories they're stirring up at the moment. i'm easily excited so as my adrenaline pumped, i intend to get all fired up creating a disaster for myself. so here's something you people ought to know:

"Share no private secrets with me & don't trust me to keep them."

yes i rather share this fact with the world than to let others know it by me doing it to them. i apologize to those who i misuse their trust. sorry... right i'm done with this so case close. please do not come up to me and speak about this matter as i have no interest to elaborate or explain myself on this. i've messed up in this...

simply wonderful

2008-07-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

from where i'm sitting,
the view of the water lilies,
look simply wonderful,
everything just seems beautiful,
when i know i have you to love,
throwing pebbles across the lake,
the ripples shakes my reflection,
but nothing in this world,
could ever stop me from being your girl,
because you know you have me to love,
all the lyrics i've got and kept,
yours was the only one,
i love and appreciate,
because that's the best one i've had,
as it tells our story of love,
counting the moments,
i wait until the day,
where we're showered by petals,
then finally come to settle,
as we hold in matrimony for the sake of love.

17.7.08

2008-07-17T07:37:00.000-07:00

today isn't such a great day. no not at all. here are the reasons why:

i didn't get enough sleep last night (i looked like hell this morning. ugh.)
my head hurts afterward and i felt like something was drilling into it
i got a shock from a sudden change of plans (yes my confidence DIED)
the whole day, my class got lectured by several teachers just because of a dimwit
the same dimwit just bore and sicken my day
a kid i saw in Seria had a croatia team jersey *gasped* (i've been DYING to get one)

okay enough about the worst part of my day. i just finished reading a book entitled 'private' and god, it's awesome. there's this one seemingly awesome jock named Thomas Pearson. i like the man but as the story goes further, i just hate him for being an ass to the main character, Reed Brennan. But overall it's a wicked book ^^ totally love it~

oh yeah, there's this one youtuber, jonlajoie and he's FREAKIN' awesome! talented and totally humorous. he can rap like seriously! he actually beats most rap songs we hear nowadays. he's cool~ i love his song everyday normal guy 2.

here's his official website if you want to know more about him:
http://www.jonlajoie.com

or you can go to his youtube page:
http://www.youtube.com/user/jonlajoie

randomness & lyrics

2008-07-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

to all you people who wishes me to online on friendster more often... well sorry babe! i don't have the urge to manage my friendster like how i used to~~ i'm more into blogging for the time being~~

there's this song called 'after tonight' by Justin Nozuka & it is AMAZING! i fell in love with it straight away when i first heard it on MTV:TRL (even though the audio wasn't heard there). so yeah, here's the lyrics:

After Tonight- Justin Nozuka

There's something in your eyes
Is everything alright
You look up to the sky
You long for something more

Darling
Give me your right hand
I think I understand
Follow me and you will never have to wish again

(Chorus)
I know that after tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
I know that if the love is alright
You won't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars

Tell me how you feel
And if i'm gettin near
I'll tell you where to steer
You'll tell me where to steer
Da-Da-Da-Darling
Way above the clouds
And high above the stars
Through the unknown black holes
No one knows where we are
But we'll return to Earth and do it all over again

(Chorus)
I know that after tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
I know that if the love is alright
You won't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars

Come away with me
Come fly away with me

Just for a night
No one will ever know
No, No, No, No
Darling

I will leave you satisfied
Forever past time
You don't have to hide your free to fly

(Chorus)
I know that after tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
I know that if the love is alright
You won't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars

I know that after tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars
I know that if the love is alright
You don't have to look up at the stars
No, No, No, No
I know by the end of tonight
You'll be looking down upon them from heaven

cesc fabregas: my very much BELOVED hero

2008-07-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

i hate the telly. it hardly gives me what i want to see. (well not until august that is ^^) so... for the time being, i go on to youtube & watch the Cesc Fabregas Show! it's totally wicked and it got me laughing so much. oh i LOVE you Fabregas, you're the king~~~ of comedy & my heart along with the other 3 i desire soooo much xD

other cast of the show would be players of Arsenal (lol OBVIOUSLY. they're his teammates anyway) and their coach, Matt Lucas. funny man he is but he's mean calling Phillipe a swiss bloke which by the way is hilarious. he KNOWS all of their names but for the sake of the show, he pretends he just met them on the show xD what made me laugh like an idiot was the seriousness of Fabregas & Phillipe during the show! god i love how they maintain their coolness~~ they're my heroes (:

there's another episode where there's a hidden camera recording his meeting with a football psychiatrist. he looked SO ADORABLE when he's all innocent! my favorite part would be the one question & answer session: "paella: Spain, winner: me. tree: koala *hand gestures* koala. you know this animal?" :D ..okay recently i went thorough a heap of Torres videos & guess what i found? a video consisting 'sexy' pictures of him... well TOO sexy that it almost showed his *ahemahem* and yes, there's a photo of him pant less xD *sigh* Torres, Torres, Fernando Torres~~~~~

another 4 guys ^^

2008-07-12T22:38:00.000-07:00

last time i posted a post saying the 4 guys i like right? or was it love? well whatever, here's the current 4 guys i LOVE:

Vedran Corluka- Sex God & a great defender~

Iker Casillas- Best goalkeeper & a heartthrob

Fernando Torres- a cute striker & definitely awesome!

Cesc Fabregas- a witty and humorous midfielder he is ^^

haha right... that's what i can came up with xD but nevertheless i love them all ^^ LOL all from different FCs~~ but 3 of them are in the same national team though~~

david villa and... him

2008-07-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

hello again and i bet i'll be label lame after you read this post. shut up, it's my point of view & i'm nice enough to share. here's something that got me laughing and wondering. okay world, be ready for it...

David Villa. Jersey number 7, player of Spain. This is how we know & looks like:

But after looking at this picture below....

*laughing* is this the Villa we know? is he? sure he has the jersey, the brows, the hair, the lips and definitely the 'setompok' beard but really, David Villa?
note: i bet you guys are gonna say 'yes that's him.' but please, i know you'll laugh even for a minute looking at that picture xD lol sorry Lyn, one just HAVE to laugh. yes you are welcome to strangle me if this picture ever comes across your mind (:

okay change topic. popularity or well-known. that is the main thing that make something we like available in this country. let's talk about how this comes up into a conversation.

i'm a fan & a supporter of MCFC and as one, i want their jersey. haha total support lah tu~~ but... this country DOESN"T sell the jersey. it's all MU, Liverpool, Arsenal & Chelsea all the way. WHY?!! yeah i figured that getting a Croatia jersey is way hard (close to impossible to be precise) to find in Brunei so i want a MCFC jersey the least to show my love for football & again, supporting MCFC. *sigh* this country... can never give me what i'm interested in... until i lost interest in those things.

Unaccepted

2008-07-05T02:59:00.000-07:00

Every year the same old people,
Talking about the same old thing,
Nevertheless the hatred doesn't change,
I'm still a blotch in everything,
Pacing down that familiar path,
Hearing voices muffled in the background,
Amongst them they despise me in whispers,
While i just ignore and look at the ground,
I question myself on what i lack,
I look in the mirror to see what's different about me,
I could never understand why,
I'm still unaccepted and mistreated badly,
No drug could drive the pain away,
No suicidal attempts could solve my misery,
But that's the reason why i stay,
And confront the pain without any complaints.

this is dedicated to KS and her minions, the KS wannabes. well if you guys even bother to read it anyway which you won't ;)

teams i support (:

2008-07-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

finally, i am able to post that previous post about the match. it was stored in drafts and it was composed on the 31.6.08 but due to internet failure, posting it on that date was impossible. anyway i'm happy to say that i'll be supporting these 3 teams for the World Cup in 2010:

Croatia, Spain & Argentina

as for football clubs, i support:

Manchester City FC (recently) & Liverpool (for 3 years already)

oh i just can't wait for the FCs to start playing on the field again. Of course, as a regular match not as a huge event. i have devoted myself to support the following teams full heartedly.

30.6.08

2008-06-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

let's be frank, i support both team during the Euro Uefa final. my feelings were neutral meaning 50/50. LOL like no one understand saja~~

i slept for a few minutes then got up at 2.10am just to see the game. the closing ceremony was CUTE but looking at the Turkey balloon-cone whatever they call it made me pissed off! like i said before, they were just lucky! Croatia should have won and it's all the referee's fault! *sigh* there's no point in me being mad at them. anyway...

it was a match between Spain and Germany. they lined up and walked to the field, accompanied by kids and Germany's team stopped. Spain's team walk towards them, each player shook hands with the opposing team and they lined at one part of the field. both sang their national anthem and as soon as it finished, the match begins. this is where the thrill starts.

what happened during the match:

Michael Ballack got injured by Spain's Senna as they were heading for the ball in the air.
Fernando Torres attempted several kicks in hoping for a goal but no luck until...
Torres scored a goal for Spain at 33"
Puyol and Ballack were about to start a fight but Casillas came in to stop them
Due to Ballack & Casillas talking back to the referee (as what said on the net), both received a yellow card
Klose got kicked in the balls by a Spaniard player (whom i can't recall of)
Klose got kicked in the chest. again.
Ramos tried to score a goal or two but it was unsuccessful
Germany substitute their player more than once, they substitute Lahm with Jansen, someone (again, can't be recalled) with Kuranyi & so on
Germany lost to Spain 0-1

lol that's one heck of a summary i've given xD well here's what i have to say...

CONGRATULATION SPAIN!!! CONGRATULATION TORRES!!!

for being the "team of the tournament."

That's That

2008-06-29T03:48:00.000-07:00

Refraining from the spot,
Letting the mirror shatter,
Staring without thoughts,
Crushing without guilt,
Conversing daily talks,
There's nothing special about it,
Eyes saw the beautiful side of her,
He caught himself admiring her unintentionally,
Approaching without regrets,
Trying without stopping,
Can you see it by now?
I'm rejecting and that's that,
Sweet words whispered,
Your intense stare kills me within,
Can you see it by now?
This isn't working and that's that,
Emotionless as dead,
Zero reaction to his attempts,
Desire overwhelms him,
Desperation devours him,
Supposed to be a kiss goodbye,
Led him misunderstanding the situation,
She won't mind if he cries,
As soon as he knows the truth,
Aching with the facts,
Resisting as you refuse to believe,
Can't you figure it out by now?
You're unaccepted and that's that,
Reaching hard for the one in me,
But ended up empty handed,
Can't you figure it out by now?
We weren't meant for each other,
No not at all and that's that.

my beloved men

2008-06-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

"You Caught Me Off Guard, Now I'm Running And Screaming"

every girl have their own men they love. no not man, MEN. especially the ones they're obsess with (usually celebrities or sport stars) well i want to share the guys i love with you people =D here are the guys:

Derek Bloom- he's so mysterious and totally amazing! he's so fit and he absolutely rocks the drums!! he's a living LEGEND.

Vedran Corluka- this fits him perfectly 'sex god'. come on, look at his body! the broad shoulders, the fit packs and obviously his eyes! so menacing and totally looks into you. oh yeah, he's so hot that a turkish guy went to him and became his deodorant! LOL he's an AMAZING footballer~~ it sucks that Croatia lost to Turkey in the Euro. TURKEY IS KALOK!!!

Martin Johnson- what can i say? he sings like a pro and he has what i call 'exotic beauty'. his voice can bring you to actually listen to his songs. i mean like you actually listen to every word in the lyrics and you try to understand the meaning of the song. BLG deserves the attention they get from fans right now =) he also has a good sense for movies. i know, he indirectly recommended me to watch garden state ;D

Chace Crawford- i know what you're thinking, typical. well i can't blame you for saying and besides, if it means me being typical then be it. i love him! he's so EFFIN hot! come on, look at that face. he's totally dream guy material. i love him when i second (not first) saw him on GG. if i have a boyfriend like that, I WON'T EVER LET HIM GO!!! i mean like he's every girl's fantasy. oh chace, i so want you. LOL i'm jealous of you Leighton. i really am.

Rethink.Relieve.Reform.Reveal.

2008-06-26T07:17:00.001-07:00

Rethink.relieve.reform.reveal.

The 4 'Rs' i have in mind. Let's elaborate them one by one & make this post seems fun ^^

*rethink- i WANTED to go for tuition & i did but before i went there, i stop to think if i really want to go for tuition. Is it worth it or will it be another waste like with Teo? I rethink my decision and well i've made it, i went for tuition. LOL rethink even if it's a tiny matter.

*relieve- i'm relieve to know that the last copy of disgaea: hour of darkness is in my possession. YEAH!! I've been dying searching & wanting it for weeks! But thanks to my lovely bestie, Yasti informed that there are only 2 copies left on sale at the mall. By the time i got there, there's only one left so yeah i bought it ^^ now i'm relieve and totally rocking the game like crazy xD

*reform- ever since he left, i became lonely & partially empty. I missed him so much that i hang on to the memories i had with him. Being depress all the way isn't my style so i reform to better myself and of course, try to move on. He's everything i ever wanted & he's the hero in my fantasies & my life for the 4 months past but that's all in the old days. I still love him but i think i'm gonna redeem that love and focus on what's important in life. My future & my school life which includes great grades. Reform Dib, reform.

*reveal- i've hide and may have lost my true self for a while but now it's here to reveal its existence. Haha wth? Anyway, i'm back to being romantically poetic, a true gamer, a cook & of course being extra helpful around the house like i used to (: but most importantly, the return of my self-consciousness & my strong conscience. With that in presence i can soliloquies myself in figuring or solving daily problems in order to help my family & myself.

Alright there you have it, my 4 'Rs' elaborated. Well i enjoyed myself writing all of this down :D

a very VERY short post =p

2008-06-19T00:55:00.000-07:00

i'm bored. VERY bored. that has led me to download a SAV file or known as a GBA game xD this are the games i downloaded (note: the one with the asterisks are incomplete or failed to download)

-*disgaea 2: cursed memories
-spyro 2: season of flame
-lemony snicket: a series of unfortunate events (it's in french!)
-*we love katamari (this TOTALLY sucks! i want this game badly ;__;)

haha so it's not that many but hey, that really saves me from eternal boredom for today ^^

True friend (i speak the truth)

2008-06-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

True friends are hard to find,
Don't consider yourself as one of them,
I thought you were one of a kind,
But you're as fake as plastic,
Behind that mask lies the truth,
Of who you really are,
Your talks are scripted,
Your doings are recited acts,
You're here within reasons,
You're like poured poison to an open wound,
Now you're under the spotlight,
Everyone's watching you tonight,
They're whispering and glaring,
You're at the end of your string,
Hate me if you must,
I don't give a damn really,
There's nothing more to us now,
So consider this over and done.

nothingness of everything

2008-06-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

i'm at lost. the school is simply dead as it enters June but i managed to extract some fun out of it. don't ask me how, i just do ^^ but as time passes by, i've lost myself into the world of boredom. i simply cannot find the thrill in anything at all. i used to be this hyper-active cheery girl and i missed that part of myself. there's only one person who could retrieve back that part of me and it's impossible for that person to come back to school before 2008 ends. *sigh* my love is a bitch. it just hurts.

i appear to be more quiet lately and i keep on thinking... too much. i force myself to cling upon the past in order to avoid myself from dying and giving up on all hopes. reminiscing the past can sometimes be the only thing that can bring a smile to my face. especially my memories about that person and how i've changed into a true lover ever since our encounter at the end of January. oh how i miss being in love with that person is there to be love by me. since he's gone... my love just feels more unrequited and hopeless. no matter, i still believe that somewhere in the future, he and i are bound to meet each other once more. i just hope that's a statement.

he holds a special place in my heart as he made me quote this to myself:
"i'm an artist and i've lost my inspiration to his leave"
i learned to devote, focus and aim for what i want. i learned to love, tolerate and jealousy while loving him deeply. he creates a beautiful life for me and supplies the never-ending fun of living... if only that could last a little longer. i admit, i've never fallen in love this badly before and never have i given my heart fully to someone before. what shocks me the most is that i care less if he's unable to reply my love as long as i am able to love him and also it doesn't bother me at all if he already has a significant other that he truly loves.

Thoughts

2008-06-11T02:40:00.000-07:00

In a spacious room,
Where thoughts can bloom,
The plain white walls,
Where anything can be sketched upon it,
Unclassified position of my existence,
Unknown reason for my very presence,
Questions that are impossible to answer,
My mind works in wonder,
I sat at the middle of the floor,
Listening to the sound of waves crashing the shore,
Compiling all my inner thoughts,
Placing them at the tip of my finger,
Dipping and swirling in paint,
Motivated, confident and inspired,
Writing of what I've desired,
Upon a wide concrete paper,
Deliberately exposing my thoughts to the world,
Hoping it opens the curious mind of a girl,
With intentions of rediscovering herself,
Hoping it reintroduces her to her true self.

*deeb's journal*