30.6.08

let's be frank, i support both team during the Euro Uefa final. my feelings were neutral meaning 50/50. LOL like no one understand saja~~

i slept for a few minutes then got up at 2.10am just to see the game. the closing ceremony was CUTE but looking at the Turkey balloon-cone whatever they call it made me pissed off! like i said before, they were just lucky! Croatia should have won and it's all the referee's fault! *sigh* there's no point in me being mad at them. anyway...

it was a match between Spain and Germany. they lined up and walked to the field, accompanied by kids and Germany's team stopped. Spain's team walk towards them, each player shook hands with the opposing team and they lined at one part of the field. both sang their national anthem and as soon as it finished, the match begins. this is where the thrill starts.

what happened during the match:

• Michael Ballack got injured by Spain's Senna as they were heading for the ball in the air.
• Fernando Torres attempted several kicks in hoping for a goal but no luck until...
  
• Torres scored a goal for Spain at 33"
• Puyol and Ballack were about to start a fight but Casillas came in to stop them
• Due to Ballack & Casillas talking back to the referee (as what said on the net), both received a yellow card
• Klose got kicked in the balls by a Spaniard player (whom i can't recall of)
• Klose got kicked in the chest. again.
• Ramos tried to score a goal or two but it was unsuccessful
• Germany substitute their player more than once, they substitute Lahm with Jansen, someone (again, can't be recalled) with Kuranyi & so on
• Germany lost to Spain 0-1

lol that's one heck of a summary i've given xD well here's what i have to say...

CONGRATULATION SPAIN!!! CONGRATULATION TORRES!!!

for being the "team of the tournament."

That's That

Refraining from the spot,
Letting the mirror shatter,
Staring without thoughts,
Crushing without guilt,
Conversing daily talks,
There's nothing special about it,
Eyes saw the beautiful side of her,
He caught himself admiring her unintentionally,
Approaching without regrets,
Trying without stopping,
Can you see it by now?
I'm rejecting and that's that,
Sweet words whispered,
Your intense stare kills me within,
Can you see it by now?
This isn't working and that's that,
Emotionless as dead,
Zero reaction to his attempts,
Desire overwhelms him,
Desperation devours him,
Supposed to be a kiss goodbye,
Led him misunderstanding the situation,
She won't mind if he cries,
As soon as he knows the truth,
Aching with the facts,
Resisting as you refuse to believe,
Can't you figure it out by now?
You're unaccepted and that's that,
Reaching hard for the one in me,
But ended up empty handed,
Can't you figure it out by now?
We weren't meant for each other,
No not at all and that's that.

my beloved men

"You Caught Me Off Guard, Now I'm Running And Screaming"

every girl have their own men they love. no not man, MEN. especially the ones they're obsess with (usually celebrities or sport stars) well i want to share the guys i love with you people =D here are the guys:


Derek Bloom- he's so mysterious and totally amazing! he's so fit and he absolutely rocks the drums!! he's a living LEGEND.


Vedran Corluka- this fits him perfectly 'sex god'. come on, look at his body! the broad shoulders, the fit packs and obviously his eyes! so menacing and totally looks into you. oh yeah, he's so hot that a turkish guy went to him and became his deodorant! LOL he's an AMAZING footballer~~ it sucks that Croatia lost to Turkey in the Euro. TURKEY IS KALOK!!!


Martin Johnson- what can i say? he sings like a pro and he has what i call 'exotic beauty'. his voice can bring you to actually listen to his songs. i mean like you actually listen to every word in the lyrics and you try to understand the meaning of the song. BLG deserves the attention they get from fans right now =) he also has a good sense for movies. i know, he indirectly recommended me to watch garden state ;D


Chace Crawford- i know what you're thinking, typical. well i can't blame you for saying and besides, if it means me being typical then be it. i love him! he's so EFFIN hot! come on, look at that face. he's totally dream guy material. i love him when i second (not first) saw him on GG. if i have a boyfriend like that, I WON'T EVER LET HIM GO!!! i mean like he's every girl's fantasy. oh chace, i so want you. LOL i'm jealous of you Leighton. i really am.

Rethink.Relieve.Reform.Reveal.

Rethink.relieve.reform.reveal.

The 4 'Rs' i have in mind. Let's elaborate them one by one & make this post seems fun ^^

*rethink- i WANTED to go for tuition & i did but before i went there, i stop to think if i really want to go for tuition. Is it worth it or will it be another waste like with Teo? I rethink my decision and well i've made it, i went for tuition. LOL rethink even if it's a tiny matter.

*relieve- i'm relieve to know that the last copy of disgaea: hour of darkness is in my possession. YEAH!! I've been dying searching & wanting it for weeks! But thanks to my lovely bestie, Yasti informed that there are only 2 copies left on sale at the mall. By the time i got there, there's only one left so yeah i bought it ^^ now i'm relieve and totally rocking the game like crazy xD

*reform- ever since he left, i became lonely & partially empty. I missed him so much that i hang on to the memories i had with him. Being depress all the way isn't my style so i reform to better myself and of course, try to move on. He's everything i ever wanted & he's the hero in my fantasies & my life for the 4 months past but that's all in the old days. I still love him but i think i'm gonna redeem that love and focus on what's important in life. My future & my school life which includes great grades. Reform Dib, reform.

*reveal- i've hide and may have lost my true self for a while but now it's here to reveal its existence. Haha wth? Anyway, i'm back to being romantically poetic, a true gamer, a cook & of course being extra helpful around the house like i used to (: but most importantly, the return of my self-consciousness & my strong conscience. With that in presence i can soliloquies myself in figuring or solving daily problems in order to help my family & myself.

Alright there you have it, my 4 'Rs' elaborated. Well i enjoyed myself writing all of this down :D

a very VERY short post =p

i'm bored. VERY bored. that has led me to download a SAV file or known as a GBA game xD this are the games i downloaded (note: the one with the asterisks are incomplete or failed to download)

-*disgaea 2: cursed memories
-spyro 2: season of flame
-lemony snicket: a series of unfortunate events (it's in french!)
-*we love katamari (this TOTALLY sucks! i want this game badly ;__;)

haha so it's not that many but hey, that really saves me from eternal boredom for today ^^

True friend (i speak the truth)

True friends are hard to find,
Don't consider yourself as one of them,
I thought you were one of a kind,
But you're as fake as plastic,
Behind that mask lies the truth,
Of who you really are,
Your talks are scripted,
Your doings are recited acts,
You're here within reasons,
You're like poured poison to an open wound,
Now you're under the spotlight,
Everyone's watching you tonight,
They're whispering and glaring,
You're at the end of your string,
Hate me if you must,
I don't give a damn really,
There's nothing more to us now,
So consider this over and done.

nothingness of everything

i'm at lost. the school is simply dead as it enters June but i managed to extract some fun out of it. don't ask me how, i just do ^^ but as time passes by, i've lost myself into the world of boredom. i simply cannot find the thrill in anything at all. i used to be this hyper-active cheery girl and i missed that part of myself. there's only one person who could retrieve back that part of me and it's impossible for that person to come back to school before 2008 ends. *sigh* my love is a bitch. it just hurts.

i appear to be more quiet lately and i keep on thinking... too much. i force myself to cling upon the past in order to avoid myself from dying and giving up on all hopes. reminiscing the past can sometimes be the only thing that can bring a smile to my face. especially my memories about that person and how i've changed into a true lover ever since our encounter at the end of January. oh how i miss being in love with that person is there to be love by me. since he's gone... my love just feels more unrequited and hopeless. no matter, i still believe that somewhere in the future, he and i are bound to meet each other once more. i just hope that's a statement.

he holds a special place in my heart as he made me quote this to myself:
"i'm an artist and i've lost my inspiration to his leave"
i learned to devote, focus and aim for what i want. i learned to love, tolerate and jealousy while loving him deeply. he creates a beautiful life for me and supplies the never-ending fun of living... if only that could last a little longer. i admit, i've never fallen in love this badly before and never have i given my heart fully to someone before. what shocks me the most is that i care less if he's unable to reply my love as long as i am able to love him and also it doesn't bother me at all if he already has a significant other that he truly loves.

Thoughts

In a spacious room,
Where thoughts can bloom,
The plain white walls,
Where anything can be sketched upon it,
Unclassified position of my existence,
Unknown reason for my very presence,
Questions that are impossible to answer,
My mind works in wonder,
I sat at the middle of the floor,
Listening to the sound of waves crashing the shore,
Compiling all my inner thoughts,
Placing them at the tip of my finger,
Dipping and swirling in paint,
Motivated, confident and inspired,
Writing of what I've desired,
Upon a wide concrete paper,
Deliberately exposing my thoughts to the world,
Hoping it opens the curious mind of a girl,
With intentions of rediscovering herself,
Hoping it reintroduces her to her true self.