Locked Within

"Locked Within"

I'm soaking wet in tears,
And I really know the reason why,
It's happening, my very fear,
That we're coming to an end,
Gasping for oxygen,
I'm trying to take this realization in,
I understand everything but not this,
Don't you know I'm hurt within?
I care less for the time needed,
For me to wait for you,
Just as long as I know you're there for me,
Regardless of things you're up to,
You're the only person alive,
To be cared and loved completely,
To be placed in a special spot,
Especially the fact you're not a crush to me,
Open space for me to breathe,
Acceptance that allows me to be myself,
Only you're able to give me such freedom,
But then again it's you who I can't help,
From deciding to stop and forgetting to stay,
If only you state the problem clearly,
We might figure or sort out a way,
You know exactly how important you are to me,
I guess I was too late to realize,
That you were driving out of my world,
I can't believe that it's actually happening,
That I'm left and back as that locked within girl.

Thoughts

In a spacious room,
Where thoughts can bloom,
The plain white walls,
Where anything can be sketched upon it,
Unclassified position of my existence,
Unknown reason for my very presence,
Questions that are impossible to answer,
My mind works in wonder,
I sat at the middle of the floor,
Listening to the sound of waves crashing the shore,
Compiling all my inner thoughts,
Placing them at the tip of my finger,
Dipping and swirling in paint,
Motivated, confident and inspired,
Writing of what I've desired,
Upon a wide concrete paper,
Deliberately exposing my thoughts to the world,
Hoping it opens the curious mind of a girl,
With intentions of rediscovering herself,
Hoping it reintroduces her to her true self.